remember when

As i sit on my porch remembering back to everything that just happened, i cant beleive it. Im in shock. I feel the tears rushing down my face but i make no sound. Not a sniffle, not a sob nothing. I cant see the rest of the world and i dont care to. All i see is my little brother lost and confused. So young and innocent. He doesnt understand. This shouldnt have happened to him he's too young. Its not fair! Our parents was innocent! They didnt have to be killed! A policeman comes up to me and asks me to follow him. "come on Damion" i say picking up my three year old little brother as he put his head in my shoulder and started to cry. He takes me to his car and stops in front of me. "ma'am I'm going to need you and your brother down at the station immediately. Ill have four cops with you while you get your things and come down. you must hurry time is everything right now." "yes sir" i say and go to the house with two of the policemen following me. I carefully go upstairs and one of the cops look at me funny. "I'm making sure i don't trigger any bombs." I say dryly. "ma'am we have secured the area there is no more bombs." He replied. "oh thank you?" I said feeling quite stupid. I went to Damions room first and grabbed his large suitcase and carry on bag. As I started packing I was thankful our parents was organized people.all his clothes was folded neatly in his drawers so it didnt take me long. I seen that there was a little room in his duffle bag so i turned to see him playing with a police car. "Damion why dont you pick out three toys and get Mr. Ted. You can hold him so he wont count as the three." "tay" he replied and handed me the police car. Then he walked to the toy box and opened it. He pulled out a... Ipod? Why does he have an ipod i couldnt get one until i was fifteen. And hes three! Then he pulled out a psp. What the mess why have i never noticed this? And then he dug for games that go to it. He pulled out like three games that go to his leap frog game but other than that he got them right. I put his ipod and games in the bag with the police car which turned out to be the only normal toy that a three year old should have in there. So since there was still enough room for two more toys i went to the toy box myself and got his leap pad computer and all its games and a stuffed penguin and put it in the bag and zipped it up. Then i put the bags by his door and one of the policeman picked them up including the Teddy bear. "I was going to get it" i said "you have enough on your shoulders its the least i can do" he said with a smile while walking of. "thank you." I yelled to him. Then i went to my room. I'm pretty organized to so all my clothes was packed quickly. Then i put my laptop in its bag and put that in the large sparkly purple suitcase. Then i grabbed the matching duffle and started packing my electronics and jewelry and chargers. While i was getting jewelry i saw a pair of diamond earrings that my dad got me on my sixteenth birthday. It was the only present i could get on my birthday before the party besides my license.

Two weeks before:

"Oh my gosh! Theyre beautiful!"i exlaimed "are they real?"

"of course no less than the best for my beautiful daughter Jelena on her birthday." He said with a smile.

"you know you look just like your mother"

"you know she says the same thing except she says i look like you." I laugh. "well of course your a perfect mixture. With her talent of singing and my talent of instruments and all the good physical features i just know you'll be famous."

"thanks dad" i smiled and held up my hair as he put the necklace on me.

"so your mom told me your dating some boy." He stated awkwardly

"Dad weve been dating for eight months now." i laughed. Dad had a hard time keeping up with me but he tries.

"ah well tell me about him." He says

"well he's great. Handsome, sweet, romantic... And a bunch of other things." I said smiling at the thought of what Zayn was like. "his name is... Lane right?" dad asked his face twisted in concentration trying to remembering the conversation he had with mom probably a month ago. "Zayn, Dad, his name is Zayn. Don't hurt yourself." I say laughing. "Right. And have you guys... Uh you know?" He said looking every where but at me. "Not yet might next week it will be our anniversary... " I say looking thoughtful. His eyes go wide and before he can protest i say "I'm just kidding dad. Still a virgin." I wasnt about to mention the fact that i plan on loosing it soon for his sake but i can honestly say i am one for now. Sixteen has been the year that i do a bunch of daring stuff as long as it don't effect my future. That stuff is for when I'm twenty one. We finish our fancy food and go to the car. On the way home the car ride is mostly quiet with comments here and there about school and weather. Dad doesnt really communicate with teens and kids well. Youd think he never was one... I guess its from being in businesses so long. After we get home i go in the doors and "SURPRISE!!!" All of my friends and a few cousins my age jump out at me from there hidden places. "Ahhh!" I screech out of fear. "enjoy yourself love"dad whispers in my ear. "Thanks Dad!" I shout to him. "Thank your mother! Later though were going to the neighbors so we dont embarrass you." He replies while going up stairs. I feel someone grab me from behind in a sweet way and kiss me on my forehead. "awesome party babe." I hear Zayns sexy deep voice say in my ear his breathe tickling me. I turn so I'm facing him "hey baby! I had no idea the party would be today!" " welll it was a surprise party" he laughs. "I'm going to get us a drink. Jessa Lynn and Hanna is over there he points to my best friends. Thanks! I say and i head over to them. "wow your parents sure do know how to party!" Hanna, my tall blonde bestie said. "No, they dont. Which is why i want to know which one of you helped them put this together i said looking around at all my friends and a few more people from school. Not to mention my cousins. And then noticing the decorations. The main colors was turquoise, teal, and mint green. Three of my favorite shades these days. There was pretty jack o lanterns smartly placed around the house and streamers every where. There was a buffet table and with my mom being a wedding planner and caterer I'm sure it was all placed neatly and tasted delicious. All the lights was off with everything glowing the main colors and neon everywhere when all of a sudden the lights come on and my boyfriend rolls in a ginormous cake that had sixteen candles and two big teal candles that was the number sixteen. "its your favorite! Marble! " zayn said a big smile on his face. "ohh! Yay! Thanks you guys!" I said with a big smile on my face. Zayn smiled and began to sing happy birthday as others joined in. I blew out the candles and then cut the first piece of cake. Everyone cheered and went back to partying or got a piece of cake. I went of and danced with some friends we was dancing to red nose (twerking may be over rated but its definitely fun) then someone grabbed my waist and i hear my bfs voice say guess who? "hmmm... Could it be my sexy boyfriend?" I say while grinding on him. "maybe. But i think my sexy girlfriend should come upstairs with me for a talk." I turned around to face him and say "what about?" I ask. "you'll just have to wait and see." he said taking my hand leading me through the crowd and up the stairs. When he opens my door i go through and turn around hoping he wasnt going to break up with me. "Okay whats this about Zayn?" I say nervously. "i just wanted to give you your present in private." He said shutting and locking the door. He pulled out a small blue velvet box and opened it so i could look inside. It was a small golden charm bracelet that had z & j as charms with a heart on the end. "Aww zayn its beautiful!" I said putting the box on my dresser. "I love it! Thank you so much!" I take it out of the box and hand it to Zayn for him to put it on me. "I love you." I say quietly, barely audible, not even sure if he heard me. "I love you to, brat." At that he swoops me up and kissing me deeply until we collapse on the bed. He reaches up my shirt mid kiss and squeezes my breast. "Zayn!" I giggle mid kiss, grabbing his hand and pushing it away. "Yellow light." "Babe I thought you was gonna lose the v card when you turned sixteen?" He whined. "You know it's not attractive when you act spoilt, and yes I want to lose it this year but not right now, there's a lot of people here. Who are my guest by the way." He grins that loppy grin of his and nods. "Alright, its your birthday. My wish is your command. But you can't tease me forever." He gives me a small peck before going to get up but I pull him back to me. "Jelena?! Are you in there?" Hannas voice yells outside my door as she wiggles the nob." I get up and walk over to the door unlocking it. She rages in, but stops when she sees our state and Zayns position still in my bed shirtless. I didn't realize he'd taken it off. Hm. "Am I interrupting? God I hope not, I've been waiting for you to have sex since I lost mine last year, and I would really hate if I was cockblocking." "Hanna! We weren't having sex!" I say my cheeks flaring. Does she always have to be so unfiltered? "Oh good. Do you still have that toffee gloss?" She says unaffected. I sigh and dig through my vanity before handing it to her. "Zayn put on a shirt would you?" Jessa Lynn says entering my room as well. If I was planning on losing anything soon, I'd really need to give my girls a talk on a thing called privacy.