Life In The Fast Lane (A One Direction Fan Fiction)

I Believe In You

Niall POV

you'll never think Niall Horan will ever be in a rehab center. I'm kinda glad jade is my doctor because I feel I can trust her and the fact that she knows me better well kinda? It's 9pm in London I can't sleep I'm looking up at the ceiling think how I need to fix my life. First of all I can't believe I'm gonna be a father Second Tour is almost here. Tomorrow I start intervention. Hopefully ill fall asleep after I pray to God to forgive me.

The Next Day

I here a knock on my door I was not sure if I was dreaming or it was real. But sure enough it was real and it was jade. She had brought me breakfast and note saying where we are gonna meet for our first session. It says good morning we are gonna meet in the dining room at 12 okay we are just gonna go over the basics. I ate breakfast it was a nice platter. After I ate I hopped in the shower gathering soap in my hand caressing my neck I was so stiff from all the stress I needed a brake. I recently stopped cutting a few months ago its a surprise no one never noticed all I wear is long sleeve shirts. I sometimes feel I need to but at times I know I'm gonna get caught. After my shower I got my shaving kit when I came across a few blades. I pulled one out as I went in for the slicing a sudden knock at the door shocked me the blade went deep but felt soo good. Blood squirted out as I yelled just a second I grabbed a towel to stop the bleeding I was just in a towel when I went to.the door it was Jade with a note book that had my name on it she tried not to look at my body as water and sweat was dripping down my chest. Her words gently came out her mouth "Good Morning Niall here's a notebook for you to write down your thoughts whatever you write in here is confidential. Thanks our meeting is in a hour" I nodded and said thank you and closed the door. The bleeding from wrist slowed down a little enough for me to put a small bandage on it. I slipped in to sweatpants and a sweater and house slipper. I jogged down to the dining room where I seen jade on her laptop. I sat down trying my best not to look at her. She sat down and greeted me with a smile. I then said hello she said hi how are you Mr.Horan. I looked in shame and started "ive been hurting and hopeless the self harm is coming back I just need guidance as a tears flowed down my cheeks. She glanced at the laptop typing. She looked up "Niall everything is going to be okay why? because I'm here to help you and that's all you need to worry about the drama that went on back in cali stays in cali I'm.your friend and guidance trust me. Tonight I want you to do homework. and that's for you to write in your book about your life and when your done stick it under my door okay that's all for today now go socialize.

I have a good feeling your gonna make it Mr. Horan.