Phillip Michael Lester |•| Phan

Phillip Michael Lester

With a steady breath I walked up the aisle, to stand there next to him. With one last deep breath I began:

"Phillip Michael Lester, do you remember how many pointless tweets I would send you day after day, trying to get your attention? How many dm's I sent you? In all honesty I miss those already!
Phillip Michael Lester, do you remember the first time I got off the train, at Manchester to come and see you? How when I phoned you I heard your voice through the phone, but directly behind you as well? You hung up, just to wrap your arms around me. We stayed there for too long, but who cares!?
Phillip Michael Lester, do you remember how many YouTube conventions we went to? How we were spotted holding hands because I freaked out and got scared? But the fans were right, together in '09 married in '22.
Phillip Michael Lester, do you remember that one time we baked stuff? Well we baked alot, but you know, as long as it's Delia its all the same to us. Our unintentional full length album was released as well. A fan with a record label apparently released it.
Phillip Michael Lester, do you remember that one time we wrote a book? Tabinof, then did Tatinof? We went on tour with a book!
Phillip Michael Lester, do you remember how we would film those random videos? Pinof? Please, please turn into a TV remote! Its a shame we never got to make the ladders ep, we were nearly done. I can't bring myself to carry on without you. Pinofs will probably stop now as well. Who am I kidding there can't be a Dan without Phil! I uploaded a goodbye internet last night.
I'm saying these things, because I remember, I will forever. You see when they asked me to write a speech, how was I supposed to tell all of your closest friends and family about the bond we had? How was I supposed to condense fifteen years of fun into a speech less than five minutes, we only just got married!

Phillip Michael Lester, I love you so much, I always have, and I always will. Goodbye Phil. Rest in peace. All my eternal love, Dan Howell."

I walked back down the aisle, away from his ghostly face one more time. And as I sat down my walls caved in. However many people believed my mask, were now listening to me bawling my eyes out, at this realisation I ran. Nobody would find me here, this was our place. Goodbye Phillip Michael Lester. I'll be with you soon my love.

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