Distance

• three •

Song for this chapter: fix you- Coldplay.

-one week later-

•Becca's POV•

These past days I've been really upset. All I can think about is Matt. I know this seems selfish, but I wish they weren't together. He doesn't even text me back anymore. Should I just stop sending messages? What is his girlfriend found out? What if he figured out I liked him and pretended to have a girlfriend? Anxiety really sucks. You over think. But am I overthinking or thinking about the truth? He's obviously attractive so theres so surprise he's not single. I guess talking to him everyday doesn't mean anything to him. I just wish I meant to him what he meant to me.

Text from Matt 💔😔
What's up?

Oh now he texts back.

To Matt 💔😔
Listening to Coldplay you?

This is what I meant. He will take forever to answer. I cold get ready for prom and still be waiting. I decide to put on 8 mile. Needed to cheer up and that movie helped cause you know violence.

Finally after 13 minutes, I get a text back.
From Matt 💔😔

Waiting for my girlfriend to text back, she's ignoring me.

What was I supposed to do? Give him advice? Not answer?

To Matt 💔😔
Maybe she's busy.

From Matt 💔😔
I know she's on her phone she's liking Instagram pics.

Wow he actually texted back immediately.I didn't know what to do so I gave him advice. I told him all the possibilities of why she could be mad, how girls express why their mad, I told him about what girls liked and how we thought. I told him about how we like food and flowers. I told him everything I wish he would do for me. After an hour in a half I thought he would feel better but he he texted back actually made me mad. So I expressed it.

From Matt 💔😔
Thinking about where to cut next.

To Matt 💔😔
I would tell you not to at all, but obviously my advice does nothing for you so do what you want.

It took awhile for him to text back like usual.

From Matt 💔😔
So what's up?

Is he serious.

To Matt 💔😔
I'm mad at you that's what's up!

I was not happy. He can be so reckless that it makes me mad.

From Matt 💔😔
Oh.

Yeah. Oh. After I read the message I didn't even respond. I shut my phone off and went to bed. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

-Rebecca 💔
04.20.16
( the emojis by my name express how I'm feeling that day I update in case you didn't notice 🙃 )