It's What Matters Most (Louis Tomlinson)

Chapter 22: The Chase Is Over

We left Doncaster a few weeks ago, when I decided to give Louis up but I said to myself that I'll wait for a few weeks to have him to myself just one last time before I disappear from their lives.

"I just wish Eleanor was here to see this." Louis said as we watched the breathtaking view of the city of Paris we were now back on tour with the boys.

Eleanor. That name, the one I'm trying so hard to forget because all this guilt is eating me up. But Louis just can't learn to let her go. And it hurts me to know that he'd rather have Eleanor beside him right now. I've been selfish but the world has been selfish on my too. I fell inlove with someone that's not mine to take. So I'll be doing what is right. I'll be giving the letter I made for Eleanor, attached to it was Louis' song.

I just couldn't take it anymore so I entered the hotel building and ran. I heard footsteps behind me. Surely it was Louis following me. Probably wondering why I ran off like that.

Running towards the elevator I pushed the button for it to open. But it just wasn't opening as fast as I hoped it would and Louis was quickly cathing up behind me.

I did what I thought was best at the moment. I ran for the stairs not daring to look back. As I reached the ground floor I was breathing heavily but Louis was following shortly behind me. I ran for the hotel's double doors that reavealed the busy streets of Paris. I stood there watching the cars pass by. I looked from left to right not knowing where to go.

"Ashley!" I looked back and saw Louis also breathing heavily from the chase. I just stood there frozen. HE slowly walked towards me.

"Ashley what's wrong? Did I say anything wrong?" He asked his expression worried. How could he be so naive?

"Nothing. I just needed fresh air, go back inside Lou." Tears were threatening to fall from my eyes. And my vision slowly blurred.

"No. If you needed fresh air you wouldn't be running away from me." He took another step towards me and I moved another step back.

"What's wrong?" He asked me again and this time I could see it in his eyes that he wanted an answer.

I hesitated. Should I tell him what I truly feel. I'm going barme here. I opened my bag and was holding the letter now. It was in an envelope with Eleanor's name written neatly on it. I knew she was also in Paris. Their family always stayed here on the second month of summer and I knew exactly where they stayed. I went with them one summer ago.

"Lou..." Tears finally escaped my eyes and now were running down my cheeks. He moved closer to me and lifted his hand to wipe my tears away but I moved back just a second before his skin made contact with mine.

"Lou you don't understand. I-I was wrong. I was so selfish but it hurts. A lot." I said through my soft sobs. People then started staring, some were taking pictures when they realized that it was Louis Tomlinson whom I was talking with.

"You're right Ash I don't understand! So please enlighten me!" His said raising his voice but his words still came out like a plea.

"Louis you may think she's the one but that's just because you're remembering all the good stuff. The next time you look back. Take a better look. I'm not Eleanor and I'm sorry I can never be like her. Can't you see! I chose you. I chose you! Someone I barely knew over my best friend." I don't know why I told him all the things that I've been feeling but it just came out.

He was about to answer me when I raised my hand signaling him to let me finish. He shut his mouth.

"I don't regret it . If I had a second chance to choose again between the both of you I would choose you again in a heartbeat. I don't know how many times I have to say this to you to get it through your thick skull. I love you."