Insecure

6. Hospital

JOE'S POV.
We rushed through the hospital doors and hurried over to the reception.
"Emma Hansen"
"Are you family?"
"No, but she is our room mate and we are the only people she have." The lady at the front desk nodded her head.
"She is on the 2nd floor, room 12"
"Thank you!" Me and Caspar said in sync.

We went to the elevator and pressed the button. This takes too long. I then grabbed Caspar by the arm and went to the staircase. I skipped some steps on my way up. Me and Caspar made it a race. Who could make it up there the fastest. Caspar won. But it's not fair he has got such long giraffe legs compared to my skinny legs. We went through the door and I tried to make my breathing stable. I really need to exercise more. I looked around and found a sign that said 'Rooms 10-19'. We went that way and now we were standing outside of her room. Room 12. I still have no idea of what happened to her.
Everything i know is that she lost her phone and somehow ended up in the hospital.

We opened the door slightly. As we came in, there was a little tiny hallway on about 2 meters. At my right there was a door which i guess is the toilet. We came up to her bed. And what I saw broke my heart and i can see Caspar is very chocked too.

There were machines all around her and she had a tube in her nose which I think helps her breathing. I don't know what half of these machines are for. But what I do know is that something really bad happened to her. But what?
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of someone knocking on the door. The doctor came in.
"Hello. My name is Dr. Johnson. Is she still asleep?" The kind doctor nicely asked.
"Yes. But what happened to her?"
"Come with me please."

We walked with the doctor to a room further down the hospital hall. It was a little seating area. It could probably fit around 10 people. The doctor then started to explain.

"Someone found her standing on a bridge with a knife in her hand."
My mouth opened wide and so did Caspar's.
"But why. Why? Why would she? I don't understand." Caspar stuttered.
"They got near her but when she turned to face the person. She stabbed herself in the stomach."
Tears were now prickling behind my eye lids. I went to look at Caspar and saw him stroking a tear away from his cheek. I padded his back slightly.
"Thank you for telling us. We better get in there." I told the doctor. She smiled and stepped to the side so we could go out.

As we came back to the hall. It felt like every single colour was draining from the walls. The hall felt so long and empty. And it was like there wasn't any living soul here at all. As we got back into Emma's room we could hear the machine beeping. The rhythm of her heart beat made me smile.

"Look at her Joe! She looks so peaceful. How could she do that? I just. I just don't see her as a suicidal person."
"Me neither Cas. But people can surprise you! We just need to be there for her when she wakes up. We're all she's got!" I said holding my hand to Caspar's back.
"Your right again, my friend." Caspar grinned at me.
I took one of the chairs and sat at the left side of her bed. Caspar took the stool that was standing on the right side.

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I woke up to the sound of foot steps. I looked around and saw Caspar walking from side to side, with a hand on his forhead.
I looked up at him and i could see his angry but still calm expression.
"What are you doing mate?"
I went up to him and looked him in the eyes. Waiting for a response.

"I just don't get it Joe! About a week ago, i asked her why she hadn't given up. Since everything that happened in her life i just assumed she would've had those thoughts. She said that she kind of looked at life like a game. Birth is the start. Death is the ending. Suicide is cheating. And who wanna be the bad person to cheat in a game. She told me that! And now look at her! She tried to fucking kill herself Joe! Just after she told me that!"

"I know mate! This is not fair, but we need to hear her side of the story."
"You're right."
Caspar said looking in my eyes.
"I'm just going to get a cup of coffee. You want some?" Caspar said looking at me.
"No thanks! I'm good."

He then nodded and left the room, and i was lost in my own thoughts. Caspar is right. Why would she do anything like this! After everything. She was getting her life back.

"J... Jo. Joe?" I heard a weak voice saying. I looked to my left and saw Emma grasping out for my hand.
I rushed to the bed and hold her hand!
"I'm.. I'm so... I'm sorry." She said with such a weak and low voice that i could barely hear her.
"It's okay. Everything is going to be fine!" I told her and meant every single word. I stroked her forhead and sat in the chair Caspar had sat in before. I could see a little smile form on her face.
I'm so glad she's okay! I texted Caspar saying that she was awake and if he could possibly find a nurse somewhere to come and check on her.

Caspar came in a few minutes later with a nurse right behind him. She started to take some blood tests on Emma where Caspar had to hold her hand cause she was absolutely terrified of needles. There were tears but she survived. I would've held her hand too. For comfort but i'm not really keen on needles myself.

I went over to the other side of her bed and she looked. Terrible. A doctor had given her some medicine so she felt a little better. She could talk without it hurting now. Which is great. I just would've wished she hadn't done that to herself in the first place. There is always away around. If she had died. I would feel so guilty. I don't know the girl very well but what i do know is that she is different.

"Why." I heard Caspar say. He was still standing right next to her.
She looked a little confused but then her face expression changed to guilt and sorrow.

"I just couldn't take the pain anymore. But you have no idea how much i regret the decision I made. I feel so guilty. I came into your lives like a bombshell. And I made you like me. And then i ran and almost killed myself. I am so sorry." She now had tears streaming down her face, and I could see she meant every single word she just said.

"I am so sorry. I hope you can forgive me someday."
Caspar then hugged her very harsh.
"Sorry. I forgot" he said and stood up.
"It's okay. It's nice to feel that pain. Of someone hugging you. I love hugs. Do it again please." She said with a grin on her face. And Caspar embraced her once again. A little lighter this time. I then saw Caspar reach out for me and i joined the group hug. Making sure not to crush Emma.

"We forgive you. Of course we do. Now please come with us home when they let you out. And stay this time."

She nodded and smiled. We spent the rest of the night talking.

A/N
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