Normally I would not be here doing this but if it is going to help then I will try. I was told to write all of my thoughts down in this diary and what happens every day so then I am not holding it up inside but I am still not shore. I am going to do it anyway and I am going to stop complaining about it.
My name is Grace and my life sucks and I could just leave it there but then I would be going against the people that are trying to help me. So I have depression and I am writing this to see if I can try to get rid of it, or to make it easier to live with. There is only one person that knows the true me and that is my best friend Izzy she is the one making me do this because she doesn’t want to see it get any worse than it all ready is.
So where do I start it all started a year ago when I found out that my dad was having an affair with so silly slut, and mum still doesn’t know and I don’t want to tell her I want dad to. I want them to sort it all out but I don’t want to make things worse because I know I will get over it but I know that my little sister won’t and she won’t understand ether. So I am doing it more for her.
The other reason is that I have been bullied every day for the last nine years of my life mind you I am only fourteen so yeah, and today didn’t get any better ether.
Day 1 27th of May 2014
Today was shit like every other day the wicked witch strikes again I was Halle King and the rest of my class. Being bitches again and then I found out that the guy I like Ashton knows I like him I wanted to die (and I am not suicidal ether ok it was a figure of speech). The girls were so bitchy and it was all “Grace you could never get him” “oh my god she is such a slut” “who would like someone like you”. To be honest they were not wrong I could never get him to like me no matter how hard I tried. This was just another one of the things to add to my list of things that had gone wrong.
Then when I got home it got worse no one was home mum was at work and so was dad and my little sister jess was at after school care, so I did my home work and all that. When they all got home there was more arguing so I turned up my music to drown it out. Then dad went out as usual to be with some slut and drink till he couldn’t walk but it was not much different to any other day when I got home.
I still don’t know what to do about Ashton knowing coz he won’t ever like me so I don’t need to try to make anything happen anyway, but the girls at school will never shut up about it though. If only I knew what his reaction was because I had only heard that he knew not what else had happened. I would love to know if he maybe liked me back but I know that something like that would never happen so I should stop dreaming and get on with my life. I don’t even know why I am even still talking about it, it is so stupid. Thank god the week is over so I sit at home and watch movies and eat all week end.
Authors note: ok what do you think I am really not shore about this book at all and I would love to know what you think of it? It would literally mean the world to me
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