To my Dear Friend,
Did you know?
When you eat brownies, you do this thing. you'll nibble the outside, exactly 5 times, then you take a big bite and somehow get chocolate and crumbs all over your face, and don't get all of the chocolate off until someone points it out.
Did you know?
When you write the last word in a sentence, you flick your wrist up and almost forget to punctuate.
Did you know?
When you focus really hard on something, you lick your lips and then press them really tightly together.
Do you remember?
When we first met, you smiled and said your name didn't matter. Like you almost, almost believed it. But not quite.
Do you remember?
That time you grazed you knee, and the tears almost spilled from your eyes, but you blinked them back and told me it didn't hurt.
Do you remember?
September?
When we kissed for the first time, and you blushed so red and your eyes watered so much that you'd think i had just proposed, and i said that you were such a girl, then you started to cry?
It was the first time i had seen you cry, y'know.
I'm still not sure if you were crying tears of joy or embarrassment.
Do you remember?
September, 7 years later?
When I asked you to marry me?
You blushed harder than when we had first kissed, and cried and i was sure that those were tears of joy.
Do you remember?
December of last year?
You told me you didn't love me anymore.
You said it with such a straight face, and i almost thought you were joking. But when you handed me the divorce papers, I cried harder than you, but instead of tears of joy, they were tears of the most intense sorrow.
The few weeks after that, i thought about why. Was i not good enough? Was there someone else? Did your family not like me?
Were you ashamed of me?
Looking back on it, i know why.
Why didn't you tell me you had cancer, Cry?
I would have stayed with you, and I know you probably wont get the chance to read this and by the time i get to the hospital it'll probably be too late, but i want you to know,
I still love you. And i know you still love me.
Love,
Felix
A/N: eh, imma update later today again, and ejrpia this isnt that great, but whatever, ILY BBY<3
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