What Is This?

Waking up

Kevin's POV
I open my eyes and see white all around me. I groan at the brightness of it and I hear someone shuffle around. I open my eyes and see blue ones staring back at me. I flinch away and feel like crying. Why aren't I dead?
"What?" I ask realizing he was trying to talk to me.
"Are you alright?" he asked. My eyes fill with tears but I blink them away.
"What happened?"
"You tried to kill yourself."
"That much was obvious. I mean why am I here?" I growl. He backs away and looks at me.
"I found you and called 911."
"What!?" I squeak.
"You heard me" me shrugged. His nonchalantness was angering me and I was about to snap.
"You know, why someone would want to kill them self is beyond me. Things are bad all over get over it." my anger bubbled over.
"Why couldn't you just let me die?! Your one of the ones who torment me. Don't you think I have enough shit I have on my shoulders. Then I go to school and deal with all of you. God you can't even do me the small favor of letting me die! What have I ever done to any of you!" tears are streaming down my face and Edd is looking at me in shock. I bury my face in my hands and cry. Why couldn't they just let me die? I ask him and he doesn't say anything. Just stares at me.
"Leave." I say quietly.
"What?" he asks.
"LEAVE!" I scream and a nurse comes in asking of everything is alright.
"No it's not, make him leave." I tell her and she puts her arm on him and guide's him out of the room. I lay back down and tears stream down muy face once again. My body is so tired. I close My eyes and embrace the darkness.
Edd's POV
I felt terrible about Kevin, he's right to want to die. All any one does is hurt him. He doesn't even have any friends really. He shield them all away and I wonder why. I can't help but want to protect the poor ginger. I get on my Nike and head back to my house. I wonder what the doctors are gonna do about his cuts. I hope he gets help.
One week later
Kevin's POV
I didn't go back to school untill the next week. I didn't stay home either, though i dout my father even noticed my absense. I stayed in the junkyard in an old van. The Kanker sister's never saw me or of they did they left me alone. I was greatful they didn't hurt me as well, the doctors said that my body needed to heal. They asked if I need help but I denied it and left. I stayed in the van for a week so that I could heal but I barely ate,not like that was unusual I barely ate at home or school. The hospotal have me a months a worth of painkillers and I loved then. They number everything and it made me feel so... Good. Like I was gonna be okay. Its Monday now and I had to sneak into my house to get clothes. I grabbed as much as my bag could carry and I snuck back out of the house. I went to school early, very early there wasn't a soul on sight. I pushed the door open and went to my locker. I stuffed the clothes in and went to the bathroom. It was the same one I tried to kill myself in and it hurt my heart. I stared at the spot of blood that was still there and tears prickled in my eyes. Why would Eddward do that? Why would he want to save a nothing like me? All him and everyone else has ever done is bully me, hurt me. And the one day it gets to be to much they finally show me a kindness? I want to laugh at the thought. After all the abuse, all the pain... I can't even form my thoughts properly, I just feel... Done. I leave the bathroom as the hell rings and I go to my first class.

When I sit in first I can hear their whispers.

Isn't that Kevin?

I heard he tried to kill himself.

Really?

Yeah just 'cause he got beat up.

That's weak.

I flinched at their words. Weak? Like they have any right to call me weak. They have no idea what I go through, no idea. I bite my lip as I feel tears rise in my throat.
As the teacher is calling roll and gets to my name the class holds a collective gasp as I announce I am in fact here.

"Mr.Barr nice to see you again." commented the teacher. I nodded but said nothing. Class went the it normally did me finshing early and just pulling out a book to read. As the hell rang and I left class one of my regular bullies came up to me and threw my book down.

"So Barr, you little pussy. You finally decided to come back." I nodded and hoped the beating wouldn't be to bad.

"You know because you were gone I haven't has anyone doing my homework, you cost me a grade in English!" he yelled at me and I flinched.

"I'm sorry." I said quietly.

"Sorry? SORRY!? You little piece of shit! Here do this by tomarrow." he said throwing me a notebook with ENGLISH in big bold letters. Then he punched me in my stomach causeing me to bend in pain I lifted my head and he sneered at me.

"That'll be worse of you don't do the assignment." with that he turned and walked away. I grabbed my book and stood up to walk to my next class.

As I sat down I laid my head on my desk and felt years come to my eyes. Why did I even have a small sliver of hope that the bulliying would die down just a little. What was I thinking? It'll never change...

"Hey.. Hey? You okay?" I blatantly realize someone is trying to talk to me. I look up and see Eddward.

"Greeting Eddward, how are you today?" I said friendly remembering how ugly I was to him at the hospital.

"Me? Oh uh I'm fine I guess. How are you?" he asked. I nodded and got to work on the paper out teacher assigned is.

"So what did the doctors at the hospital say?" he asked I shook my head and continued to work he sighed and turned around. I looked at the back of his head, small strands of his black hair peaked through his black beanie with it's one white strip, my eyes traveled down to his black jakey that defined his muscles so well. And why wouldn't he have muscles from all his training for swim team. He wore black skinny jeans that also defined the hardness of his legs. I shake the thoughts from head.
What am I thinking anyway? No one could ever love a loser like me..