Tears In The Dark

Flashbacks are mood killers

       Unsteady by X Ambassadors
      We all feel unsteady before we
                    are stable
I still remember every detail of that day. The day my life mentally ended. The day my parents died. Every word that was said. Every emotion that had been stabbed through me the moment they said "I'm so sorry for your loss." I remember all of it as if it was just yesterday. It has been 6 months since the accident and I still can't get it out of my head and out of my nightmares. It feels like it has been permanently glued behind my eyelids every time I close my eyes. The dreams will not go away. Any time anyone says something like your mom while joking it triggers all the memories of that day and it takes hours and hours of crying and screaming for the pain to finally disappear just to come back at any given moment in the future. Today the trigger word was said at school. I was sitting in class taking notes when the teacher decided to pass out the test we took a week before. I knew I didn't make a good grade on it because I couldn't concentrate. When the teacher gave me mine it had a 95 on it and half the questions were wrong. When I talked to her about it she said "I know it's been hard on you and your sister since the accident so I'm trying o help you pass for the year while you recover. Your parents would be proud how your handling things. I forced a smile and felt my heart rate starting to speed up. The bell rang signaling class to be over. I stumbled out of class trying to make it to the restroom before the tears and screams burst through me. Before I made it though, someone stopped me and said " Hey loser. Where are you going?? Did mommy and daddy call you? Oh shoot. I forgot. How dare I? You don't have any parents. Why is that? Could you tell me why?" I couldn't help the tears. So they burst. I started to cry while the crowd around me grew and a series of laughs were heard. I sobbed and soon I started screaming. The only sound I heard was the voices of the doctors and nurses as they said things to be done to my parents. Then words like we're loosing them. Then the straight line of the heart monitor being heard. I screamed out to the doctors who told me the news. All my pleas went unheard as I came back to the present where the laughing had stopped and everyone was looking at me terrified. Then the voice of a stranger said "Get out of here!! What's wrong with you??" Everyone took off except for Jeremy miles. The football player who was asking me about my parents. He was looking at the stranger who told everyone to leave. "What's wrong with you dude. We were just having a little fun. Why you ruining it??" I turned my head to see who he was talking to and saw none other than Lexington Martin. The school quarterback and most popular guy in school sitting next to me. He was looking at Jeremy harshly and then he stood up. Before Jeremy could say anything else, Lexington had him pinned against the lockers and said "you think that it's funny to laugh at someone who lost their parents and watch them suffer through the memories daily? You think that it's funny to have to live every moment knowing that you can never see your parents again. That you will never be able to feel that love again? If you think that it's funny, you are terribly messed up. Now get out of here or I swear to God you will wish you had never done this." He let him go and Jeremy ran down the hallway before Lexington kept his word. He watched him turn the corner before coming to sit back down next to me. I looked up at him and said "thanks. You didn't have to do that." He looked down at me and said "I don't think it's funny. You shouldn't take his shit. He shouldn't talk about you like that. " I looked down at my beat up converse and remembered my parents when they gave them to me. Dang it. Why do my flashbacks have to be mood killers? I was in a good mood and then I had another flash back.
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Hey peeps!!!!!👋 How are you???
Thanks for reading my story!!!! Please tell me what you think in the comments. I don't have internet at home so my updates will be kind of random her and there. The picture above is of Mandolin. Just to let you know what I found out after I named the character, a Mandolin is actually a form of guitar and the guitar will play an important role in the story!! Fate or coincidence??? Bye!!!!