Jellatinii's Drawing Book

Last Chapter (VERY!!!)

No.

"I am not proud of my past."

I was innocent.

Good at everyone.

I am.

Used to.

I can't seem to forget everything I used to be before...

Bullied.

Threatened.

And Used as.

I am not proud of myself, I said.

I won't care about myself, I said.

Everything I said, was, really meant.

"They made me fall."

I became a coward.

A silent coward.

They made me like this.

Judgement.

Dangers.

They made me back.

That's why I start to never trust myself at all.

Anymore.

I never let myself seek opportunities

I let myself quiet as I can be.

Sometimes

My Fear

Pain

Anger

Took Control all over my body...

I lost myself.

Try to be a fitting person I can be.

Pushing away things I never get to see.

Making me lonely.

In the dark

All alone

"I like being alone..."

But I don't fancy being alone.

Yes. I'm a coward, but I seem to understand that I shall rise through my thoughts, and words that brings me down.

I, can make myself fall down, but also to hold myself up.

The only person who can help you is

You.

Yourself.

Dependable.

Trustworthy.

Friendly.

Acceptable.

"You are acceptable."

Purposes comes from your life that's either expected or unexpected.

"Change."

They said.

"Be the person you can be. From who you are, what you are, and whatever you are."

"They will never be you."

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One last thing before I go:

Deep shit

DEEP SHITS

I can't believe I wrote this all down few months ago ;-;

I just want to share this to all of you... And to people who are experiencing this same situations of losing self esteem, hope and Trust to youselves

And I NEVER BELIEVED THAT I MADE THIS COMPLETELY

LIKE WOW

I FOUND THIS IN ONE OF MY UNPUBLISHED BOOKS

Fucking feels right there ;-;