I apologize, this isn't really an update but I just need to ramble about stuff. So last week, I dropped off my course selection form to my counselor, then she told me that she's worried about me because my grades dropped, a lot, and that she thinks that I may be depressed or something, so I met up with her again that week then I realized that I am depressed so now I have to go to her office once a week. She emailed my parents and asked them to take me to the doctor to check up because I have a very low motivation and energy that is, I guess a symptom for being depressed and it also explains why my grades dropped. When my dad talked to me about it, he said that he thinks that I'm just lazy. Today, my mom found out that I'm not straight, pansexual to be more precise, and she said that I'm just trying to get some attention since I am the middle child and told me to stop causing more problems for her and she said things like how she doesn't want me to call her mom anymore because I'm an embarrassment to her. I'm really sorry for not updating very much and I'm sorry this isn't an update, I just really need someone to talk to right now because I've never had a long term or good friend to talk to and i just really need someone right now. I've been crying the whole time I wrote this because I'm probably getting disowned tomorrow or something and I don't have anyone to turn to.
