God sees all of failures, thoughts, and desires of you the thoughts are dark fingers, wrapping around your ankles and dragging you down your face feels stiff as plastic - about to break a living doll's eyes staring clear and blank...empty the tears burn satin soft scars into your cheeks
at the ripe age of eleven, you have become an adult - when most people stop loving and expressing themselves, dying one piece at a time until Death comes and officially finishes them off. often, when someone you love passes away - a piece of you also dies alongside them
the strings inside of you is what your stone heart hides from view some of the strings break so that other people can see the hidden parts of your mind when your stone heart breaks when someone you once loved stabs you in the back with a knife the knife cuts the final string that you had left because the person who claimed to love you does noT know and does not care about you
never have, never will
the pain may seem to have a form of salvation, a purpose for living YOU WILL BREAK SOME HEARTS, DESTROY SOME LIVES BEFORE YOU CUT, TAKE THE PILLS, PULL THE TRIGGER, JUMP OFF THE ROOF
REMEMBER THIS, THERE IS NO GUARANTEE THAT YOU WILL DIE
YOU ARE READING
nightmares of a transgender female to male
Poetrymy journey of shedding my female body playing my life like a stack of cards my unfulfilled hopes my charred past, my extinguished future reborn into a man
