|•| Flashback|•|
~Eren's Funeral~
Eren laid cold and still in the coffin his eyes were closed and I knew I would never see those bright emerald eyes again. Eren's cape was draped over him and his hand was over his heart and the other rested by his side.
"He was my best friend and I'll never stop missing him.." Armin had finished his speech tears rolled down the small blondes face as he walked back to his seat next to Erwin. Mikasa looked at me gently nudging my side I nodded and stood up. I walked up to the podium and began my speech.
"Eren Jaeger, he was an excellent soldier...he was a great friend, helpful, caring, determined..he was my companion...and my lover.." A tear rolled down my face as I gripped the edges of the podium until my knuckles turned white, I felt as if I would collapse at any moment.
"I loved him so goddamn much..." I turned around tears were now uncontrollably streaming down my face. I walked over to the coffin and put my hand on his.
"Tch, I loved you so fucking much Eren Jaeger...why did you have to leave me so soon?" I heard a few soft sobs coming from his friends in the audience. I walked back to the podium and sighed taking out his file, and reading it out loud.
"Eren jaeger, 15 years old, placement: Scouting Legion, Gender: Male, status alive....current status...deceased." I took a deep breath and stormed back to my seat collapsing into Mikasa's arms.
|•| Flashback Over|•|
I woke up still on the floor of my office and I rubbed my temples.
"God fucking dammit.." I muttered standing up and looking in the mirror. My hair was disheveled there were almost black circles under my eyes my clothes were tattered and filthy after not changing them for days my eyes were red and puffy from sobbing for days on end. I turned my head and looked over at the door contemplating weather or not I should go into our bedroom, after about 15 minutes I walk to the door my hand shaking as I turned the knob. I walked out slowly and turned the corner. The hallway was empty nobody was out there I could hear a few quiet sobs coming from Hanji's room and I could hear things being angrily thrown around in Erwin's office. I made it to our bedroom and slowly opened the door. His scent hit me in the face like a fucking brick and I felt tears come to my eyes. He was buried in a suit the only part of his uniform he was buried with was his cape.
"No..please no.." I shakily walked over to the bed his uniform was folded neatly and his belts were laid out as if he were getting ready to put them on. I picked up his jacket and clutched it I fell to my knees and a choked sob escaped my lips as I held it close to my face, horrible sounds escaped me with every shaky breath I took, barely holding on and that's when I realized...
I can't live like this I can't go on without him...
