Imagine First Time Dolan Twins

First Time with Ethan continued

Ethan and you did as you usually did, talked until your words were slurred from tiredness and you dozed off into a deep sleep. 

ETHANS POV: 

I pulled y/n into my arms when she fell asleep next to me like every night making sure not to touch anything I knew I wasn't allowed to put my hands on. For some reason I cant stop thinking about her little mishap with the shirt. I mean, i only saw part of her cheek but I guess i'm just starting to get a little frustrated after all these years and she still wont let me touch her body. I guess it's kinda cute that she's all innocent and pure down to physical contact. I kept my hands on her stomach and arm when we slept. I would never touch her anywhere else without her consent. 

** THE NEXT MORNING** 

Ethan wakes up before you and lays there next to you until you wake up which was a little unlikely. Usually he goes straight to the bathroom and then makes breakfast right away. 

YOUR POV:

I opened my eyes and rolled over to see Ethan still laying there, hands on his stomach just staring at the white ceiling of our bedroom. Weird I guess?? I looked at him and asked if he was ok. Is something bothering you? 

After a few seconds of silence, he looks at you and goes to say something but stops himself. 

"what?? Just say it." you say worriedly

ETHANS POV:

I kinda wanna go further in our relationship.....i mean it's been a while. I hope she trusts me enough. I wont hurt her....:/

Ethan: Im not sure how to approach this matter since it's not something we talk about very often, but do you trust me??

Y/n: yeah of course...? What do u mean? Are you talking bout last night??

Ethan: Ya, i mean we've been dating for so long and do you trust me enough to lose your virginity to me?

YOUR POV:

He kinda caught me off guard. We rarely have this conversation. I mean.......i'm prob being a little too prude-ish. Maybe I should just let it go?? I'm just so insecure about my body and nobody has seen it bare but myself and my doctor. I love him with all my heart and i do trust him very much but maybe my own insecurity is controlling me too much. I know he isn't a virgin and I'm afraid I'll disappoint him with my body and make him leave me to be quite honest.  

Y/n: we'll see 

You gave him kind of a bland answer even though you were thinking so much more than what came out of your mouth. 

You went through a full day doing whatever you had planned and him doing what he had planned. Ethan was with Grayson filming a video for Tuesday and you just spent the day contemplating the discussion you and Ethan had earlier and at the same time trying to get your mind off of it by going to the mall alone. 

You went to your regular stores; American Eagle, Victorias Secret, American Apparel, Urban Outfitters, just raiding the sale section like you do every single damn time you go in there. You wound up getting a few tank tops (the basics) and a few other things.

It was getting late in the afternoon and you knew Ethan was gonna be home soon so you made your way back home stopping at Starbucks first. You walked in the door on your house and place your bags down, put down your car keys and slipped off your Doc Martens.