"He isn't even hospitable! I wonder if he's hiding something... hmm... Maybe when we fight the next time, that is if we do again,I'll ask him." I go to text him but... "He hasn't been on for three days! I mean, I understand if we go to different schools at different times but this is new, even for him. I wonder when...
Huh?" I said, puzzled as my phone goes off. I saw a text message that read:
Hey Sky. U ok? ~Marco
I wait a moment to reply. I think on how to play this so he won't be onto me.
Yeah, I'm fine. Hbu? ~Skylar
As I wait for him to reply I recap the weekend. First I remember when I swam in class earlier, in which I wore a long sleeved bathing suit. I was scared that my scars would broil because of the chlorine the pool. But I found that I like the pain, I like the tingling sensation it causes, it's addicting.
Then I thought back to the countless party's and how I'd rage at party's then sleep for about a day or two. People never worry about me anyways, not unless I was fetching a drink or running an errand. I was invisible to practically everyone. They would try to be my friend and introduce themselves then never talk to me again. Well, not unless they need something.
Then I remembered Marco. Why had he abandoned me yet? Does he think I'm a joke? Is it just because he has no one else, or that he has the exact same feelings I do about life? That is pointless and not needed? He's welcome to leave whenever he wants to just abandon me, just like all of the other fakers. Except my small group of real friends. They are also fine, I guess. They haven't left me yet, but I'm sure they will sooner or later. They are all boys, but I don't care. As long as they stay around and don't abandon me I'm fine. And even though I haven't been in a relationship, I'm already broken by all of the fakers. I don't need this. I haven't done anything wrong... (Tears drip down my face)
I get a little spooked when my phone goes off and smiles, if anyone would laugh it would have been...um...Marco?
What The Hell!
I've started cutting again. Sorry Sky? Didn't know how to tell you, that's why it took so long ~Marco
I swear when I see that boy I'm gonna slap him then check that wrist of his to see why was done.
WHAT THE HELL M! What's wrong with you! What did you do?!? ~Skylar
I could hear something outside. "What was that?" I say aloud but there's no answer. It sounds like someone's coming into the house. (I look outside) "Moms car isn't here. Well that's extremely strange. I could have sworn someone was just coming in." I hear footsteps, so I run to the corner and peek at the door. " BOO!" Marco jumps put from the door and screams as I jump so badly.
AAAH! MARCO!?!? How did you get in?!? (I gasp) the. He said "first off I have my ways and also.... Your door was unlocked." He examines me for a moment' "what's wrong? Why have you been crying?" As he waits for an answer, I wipe away my tears. "I wasn't crying, I was... Uh... Trying to fake cry... For a film... Yeah... A Flim!" He looks at me and smirks. "Sure you are." He then giggles. I sigh an wipe away my sweat beading on my forehead. He looks at me with wild, crazy eyes. "Oh and nothing's wrong with me. I did it because I have my own reasons. I punch him on the shoulder when he sits he laughs. "So what's up?" He asked. I don't know how to tell him that me and Melanie are a thing. He probably won't understand. I also want to ask him if he's ever been to a party and understands how rowdy it gets. Melanie cheated on me with another girl. I was am and sad so I talked to Ajay, Jason, and Daniel. They gave me all random answers because I asked if I should forgive Melanie. I forgave her and were back together. It's confusing because Marco and Melanie both star with a m so I have to say other m when I'm talking about one with the other one. Anyways back at hand. Ed been opening up a bit so he will tell me if something doesn't feel right. "Hello! earth to Sky! You still here? Says Marco waving his hand in my face. I spoke to myself. "Oh god was he saying anything? Oh man..." I finally spoke to him. "Yeah I'm here." I fake laugh a little and he looks at me with a concern. "I've got a lot on my mind." I say and sign. He sits me down but we don't talk. Dead silence. I don't want to tell him what's on my mind, he might rage and find everyone and hurt them. Don't want this to be so complicated. No one could possibly understand the way I think and he way I fell. My whole life is complicated bit I'm kinda glad it is. I don't want people to see right through me. "You seem kinda....down." Marco says,breaking the silence. "It's fine, I'm ok." I say bit he's still seems suspicious. He never believes me when I tell him stuff like that. He's one of the only people who can see right through my lies. "Can I tell something?" I ask sniffling. "Of course you can, always." Here goes nothing. " I... I have a girlfriend" I say.
~end of pov~ #1
