I woke up and nobody was awake. I went to my room and got ready. I showered and shaved. I put on a pair of leggings with a white muscle shirt. I blow dried my hair and put it in a high pony tail.
I sat on my bed playing. The best to one of my songs. I wrote it about 2 months ago before I got adopted. One of my friends convinced me to go to a party and I was the outcast.
I'm sorry if I seem uninterested
Or I'm not listenin' or I'm indifferent
Truly, I ain't got no business here
But since my friends are here
I just came to kick it but really
I would rather be at home all by myself not in this room
With people who don't even care about my well-being
I don't dance, don't ask, I don't need a boyfriend
So you can go back, please enjoy your party
I'll be here, somewhere in the corner under clouds of marijuana
With this boy who's hollering I can hardly hear
Over this music I don't listen to and I don't wanna get with you
So tell my friends that I'll be over here
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here oh oh oh
I ask myself what am I doing here?
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here
And I can't wait till we can break up outta here
Excuse me if I seem a little unimpressed with this
An anti-social pessimist but usually I don't mess with this
And I know you mean only the best and
Your intentions aren't to bother me
But honestly I'd rather be
Somewhere with my people we can kick it and just listen
To some music with the message (like we usually do)
And we'll discuss our big dreams
How we plan to take over the planet
So pardon my manners, I hope you'll understand it
That I'll be here
Not there in the kitchen with the girl
Who's always gossiping about her friends
So tell them I'll be here
Right next to the boy who's throwing up 'cause
He can't take what's in his cup no more
Oh God why am I here?
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here oh oh oh
I ask myself what am I doing here?
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here
And I can't wait till we can break up outta here
Hours later congregating next to the refrigerator
Some girl's talking 'bout her haters
She ain't got none
How did it ever come to this
I shoulda never come to this
So holla at me I'll be in the car when you're done
I'm standoffish, don't want what you're offering
And I'm done talking
Awfully sad it had to be that way
So tell my people when they're ready that I'm ready
And I'm standing by the TV with my beanie low
Yo I'll be over here
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here oh oh oh
I ask myself what am I doing here?
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here
And I can't wait till we can break up outta here
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
I kept playing the beat and the door opened. I turned and Skate came in.
"When did you get up?"
"About an hour ago." I said and kept playing the beat.
"I like it." He said after he got ready. "You write that?"
"Yeah." I said and showed him the lyrics.
"That's the party Kylie took you too and I got you out of."
"Yeah." I said. The others came and got us and we went to eat.
We went to the park all the guys running around. I was sitting on the hood of car watching. Cameron joins me after awhile.
"Tired?"
"I'm fine." I said and shivered a bit. It's freezing.
"Here. Put this on." He said giving me a hoodie from the car. We walked around and talked a bit. I only have really warmed up with Cameron.
"Come on guys! Let's get to the hotel!" Nash yelled and we walked over. The ride was shortish.
I went and sat on the roof. Someone came up..... It was........
