Saving Tomlinson

Chapter 3

Louis woke up with a sharp pain pounding against the inside of his head. He slowly opened his eyelids and the light was so bright he felt as if he was being blinded.

He slowly sat up and got out of bed. Pressing his fingers to his temples he walked toward the bathroom and closed the door. He turned on the sink and splashed cold water in his face, but head still felt heavy so he took some pain killers to help with the pain. As he watched the pills poor out onto his hand he was tempted to overdose, but quickly put the bottle away because he knew overdosing wouldn't help in this situation.

Leaving the bathroom he slowly made his way outside of the bus to find the other boys. Niall and Zayn were sitting at a round table about twenty feet away from the bus. Once he reached the table he sat down in an empty seat and buried his aching head in his hands.

"Morning, Lou," Zayn said.

"What the fuck happened last night?" Louis asked.

"We all went to a bar after eating at Nandos and you got drunk," Niall explained.

"Well it's pretty obvious I got drunk. I don't have this hammering headache for nothing."

"Well that's not all that happened, Louis," Zayn told him uneasily.

"What else happened?" Louis asked confused while raising his head.

"I think I'll let Niall tell you this one, alone," Zayn said before he left. He rose out of his seat and went into the tour bus.

Niall shot Zayn a glare. He obviously didn't want to do this alone.

"Niall, what happened that's such a big deal?"

Niall nervously explained all of the events that happened the previous night. Louis's eyes widened. He racked his brain for any memory of this, but could find none.

"Niall, you do know that that kiss meant nothing, right?"

"Um, yeah. I know, Lou."

"Niall, are you okay? There's still something bothering you. I can see it in your eyes." Louis couldn't tell what emotion Niall's eyes were filled with, but he knew that Niall was still upset.

"Well, um, I don't really know how to put this."

"What, Niall? You can tell me."

"Um...uh...I think I may be beginning to like you," Niall rambled so fast Louis could barely understand him, "I'm not completely sure on my feelings yet, so don't freak out. I don't know where these feelings came from or how i got them, but i do know there's something there. You're just so funny and charming and kind. I've always liked you a lot as a friend, but now I don't know. I think I have greater feelings now." Total silence filled the air for about ten seconds. Niall felt as if he could throw up; they seemed like the longest ten seconds of his life.

Louis was shocked. He never expected Niall to say this. Niall had become quite clingy lately, but Louis never thought anything of it. "Niall, you do know that I'm in love with Harrry, right?"

"Yeah, I know. That's why I was hesitant in telling you."

Harry walked up to them breaking the silence. "Lets go boys, we've gotta get ready for tonight."

All three of them walked to last minute preparations in silence.





Nobody knew about Louis's cutting but him with the exception of his stylist. There was really no way in avoiding her discovery of his problem, since she was the one who dressed him. She was never able to talk to Louis about it because he really only saw her when he needed an outfit for the tour. The only way she was able to express that she cared was to write little notes in the pockets of his trousers or jackets that said things like:
"Stay Strong Lou" or
"Things Will Get Better"

She didn't know why he cut, but she did care. Louis was ashamed whenever she saw his scars because he felt like he was letting her down. She never said anything but he could see the disappointment in her face. It was one of the worst feelings in the world.

After he was dressed and ready to go on stage she hugged him tight and whispered, "You're gonna do great, Lou."

"Thank you," he replied with a smile.





Whenever any of the boys were on stage they felt absolutely amazing. They loved the fans and wished they could personally meet every single one of them. Although each of the boys were a little shaky considering the previous events from the past two days, all of them felt happy when they were on stage- even Louis.

Here Louis felt loved and accepted. All of the screaming fans and packed arenas made him feel a kind of joy he could feel no where else. The fans actually loved him despite his flaws. On stage Louis felt like he finally belonged.

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Author's Note:

Omf I and so freaking sorry. I have literally had no time for this. With sports and school work and everything else my life has been completely packed. I am so sorry I haven't updated until now. I am about to write the fourth chapter so hopefully I will have that up ASAP. If you hate me right now I understand lol. Ilyasm and again, I am so incredibly sorry.
-@involuntarywriter