~Saphire~
'You sure your going to leave??'
Jude asked me for the nth time.
I shrugged.
'That's the good thing to do right now Jude..' i said
I heard him sigh. Stop pitying me Jude..this is the only thing i could do to make them happy..to make him happy..
'Don't act as if you're okay Saphire because your not..you will never be okay..' he dramatically said..Well,Im still lucky there's someone who cares for me right??
'Just accept my decision Jude.' I begged. He's really hard headed.
'Is there something that can make your decision change??'
I sadly look at him and sigh..he knows I wouldn't change my decision..Im obliged to do this.
'Well..England is just hours away from here so I can still visit you and your baby..' he said as he rub my stomach..Im pregnant.And he doesn't know it..I have no guts to tell him at all..
'Yeah..England's just hours away here in New York..' i laugh..lifeless. Im trying to be happy by thinking that he'll be happy to be with the one he truly loves.
'Why don't you tell him about your condition??' Jude ask while I watch the stars shining brightly in the sky..
'What??about me,getting pregnant and his the father?I won't use this child Jude.I don't want him to stay with me because he got me pregnant..I want him to be happy..' i said nearly crying..Im not okay..But I know soon that I will..with the help of this baby..
Seconds later i felt Jude's warm hug around me..i hug him back.He rub my back comforting me..I wanted to cry..but I think my eyes are tired enough to do it. Just like me..Im tired fighting for the two of us..
'Im just here okay??' He said. I nod to answer him. I know he's always here..helping me through my problems..that is what he's doing everytime were together..
'Hey..I wanna go home..' i told Jude still hugging him..
'Want a piggyback??' He ask. I pouted..he still treat me as a kid..
'Im not a kid anymore..' i said then playfully pushed him..he just laughed..but i sense something. He's sad..is he sad because Im going to leave??
Stupid Saphire..you know the answer..
'This will be the last time Im going to do that because soon,Im going to piggyback your baby..' he said smiling..I smiled back..How I wish I loved this man like how he love me..but I can't..And Im thankful that he understands it..
'Ok fine..' i gave up..for the last time right??
He turn around and kneel so i gently ride on his back and he starts walking..
'Im going to miss you Saphire.
' he told me..
'Yeah..Im going to miss you too jude..you've been there in my best and worst happenings in my life..I wish i never have to leave..because leaving this place means leaving the important people in my life here..including you..' i said. I thought my eyes were tired of crying but I think it change now..because right now,my tears won't stop falling on Jude's shoulder..
I heard him sob. I hurt him..no scratch that...Im hurting the man who did nothing but to love me..but what did I give him?I give him pains..but he didn't budge about it..
'Then don't leave..don't leave me Saphire..' I can hear him crying behind that manly voice of him..
'You know I have to right??' I ask him as if reminding him that he knows everything..
