He is the badass's nerd.

Chapter five : Painful memories (part 1)

Harry's POV

Have i just really heard that ? She wanted me to stay ?.

I turn to face her and she is looking at the ceiling , i cant even read her face .

"You sure ?" I finally ask.

She stays quiet for a few seconds .

"Yes , i guess you said that i need some care , didn't you ?" She says still looking up.

This is a bit disappointing .

"Okay then , i will take the couch . If you need anything ,just call my name " i say and turn the light off .

"Wait , i think you will need a blanket? " she says and points at the drawer next to her bed .

I randomly pick one and close the drawer and she hands me a pillow .

I scan her face for one last time before i head to the door , she looked broken . I wish if she trusts me to tell me what happened .

"Thank you "

I can tell that she killed herself to say it but yeah , i knew she is not the appreciative type .

"It's okay , sleep well" i say and close the door behind me .

I lay on the couch and turn on the TV and switch through the channels . Nothing on . So i decide to just stay there till i fall asleep .

Millions of thought run through my mind about a girl with angels face but seems to be dark from the inside , how she captivated every piece of my mind from the first time i saw her . The fact that i know who she really is just like she know who i really am . I can tell that she was forced to that life just the way i was forced to mine , the way she broke down in my arms tells me how emotional she is she cried like a child . From where did that girl get All of this anger , but for me forgetting mu glasses she would have bleed to death .

I take in sight the all the shutters and drops of blood around me before i decide to clean it up . I tried to make it as quiet as possible so i don't wake her up . As i pick up the pieces i hear a sound coming from her bedroom , is she crying ?. Should i go and check on her ?. God , it wouldn't be that tough to decide with any other girl , but she is different .

I take the courage to knock the door .

"Drop it , Harry " i hear her through the door .

Noway i am setting there hearing her cry .

I crack the door open and turn the light on . She covers her face with her both hands . I set on the space next to her and place my hands on hers to remove it from her face "Shh, it's okay , you need this , you need to cry "

I left her head from the pillow tugging her in a hug . She doesn't stop me , she just cry ,louder .

We stay like this for what seemed like hours until she stopped crying and just as i thought she fell asleep she starts to talk .

"It's my father ..., he always had anger issues , other than that he would have been a perfect father ..i used to be so scared about him . Doctors said that his heart is weak , too weak to take in a big shock "

"Where is he ?"

"He .." She gasps "he past away"

"Oh , I'm sor..."

"It was years ago , Harry ... He used to be my everything literally everything , believe me when i say he used to be my best friend , and after him i never a best friend , I didn't even seek one ...." She pauses .

I am really glad that she is talking and i don't want her to stop.

"That night he came to pick me from some sort of a trip i went with friends , then he suggested that we would have dinner at Mcdonal's and i agreed .So he called my .... Mom and tolled her that we'd be late , during the dinner she would call every ten minutes to see when we were going home , saying that she just misses me but she doesn't want us to rush ...."

I can feel a tear after tear dropping on my arm and i welcome it in a loving hug . Then she began to sob again .

"Then that idea of surprising her by coming early came up on my mind . We opened the front door and i went running searching for here , she would usually be in the kitchen but she is not , i kept calling her name but nothing .." She says through the sobs .

As much as i want her to carry on , it's hard to watch her like that .

"You don't have to talk right now ..."

"No , let me get this off of my chest .." She says wiping her face .

"My father was still still parking the car when i ran into the house , i went upstairs but stopped calling her name when i heard her voice coming from their bedroom , i couldn't figure out the words , all i heard was 'Mark' that was the name of our neighbor , and with every step i take towards the door realization fall onto me , i ... Took hold of the handle and closed my eyes cracking the door open ....... S-she was on her knees in front of him ....."

Oh my god , should i stop her now ? .

"I was 15 , Harry, aware enough to know what was happening at then ,.. Their both heads snapped in panic at the direction of the door , i just stood their watching in disgust as the asshole picked up his clothes and ran off but she was still on her knees completely naked trying to cover her cheep body with her hands ......"

I can see the disgust clear on her face . God i knew that she had a epic past but never expected it to be that painful .

"Then i felt my father standing behind me , i was still cant believe that this was my fucking mother sucking our neighbor's dick as i just stood frozen . Literally frozen as she just sat there in shame and fear and panic , she hasn't even said anything at all .... I waited . I waited for my father to scream at her, break some of our dishes ,curse at her , do anything but nothing came ..."

Her sobs are getting louder with every word but at that part it was barely a scream .

"I snapped my head back at the look on her face at my father behind me and the sound of something .someone hit the floor ,hard .... I-it was him , my father .....he couldn't handle it , i knew he wouldn't .... I bend down shaking his body in from head to toe screaming 'dad' but no respond , he was already gone ....."

I cant help the tears running down my cheeks , this is way too much , i tighten my grip around her and she carries on in my chest .

"I heard her screaming his name and running to us with the blanket wrapped around her . And i was just like something hit me hard i couldn't say anything as i look at my father's lifeless body then my disgusting mother then back to him all i did is run , i ran without a destination just running away ... That was too much i kept screaming and screaming tell my my throat got sore and my feet mot numb from running .... This night i fell asleep in the street ........but didn't wake up there .."

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I actually cried while writing this chapter .

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