When I close my eyes, I see him, I don't see his face, I only see the back of him, but I can tell exactly who it is. It's almost as if he is walking away from me, almost as if he is moving on.
Even though I'm still awake, and I still can control what I think, whenever I try to imagine him turning around he just disappears, I open my eyes, close them, and he is standing there, facing away from me.