Me being me..
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I will lose my sanity one day because I keep only the things that make me insane. I keep them subconsciously but it plays on my consciousness. Making me feel crazy, making me obsess over it. I will lose my sanity one day because all the things that keep me sane have died into the background and no longer stand out.
One day I will lose my family because I push them away. I push them away because I feel that I can’t open up to them. I can’t talk to anyone in my family I know they’ll go and tell someone else no matter how much I make them promise. My family will be lost to me one day because I will finally see that they do not care about me or what I have to say, only what they can spread.
One day I will lose my friends. One day their views will change and I will be lost to them. They might see that it isn’t right for gays or bis to being this world. They might see that everything I’ve done to them actually hurt them more than comfort them. One day I will be lost to my friends because the opinions of society change, and so will they.
One day I will lose the one I love. It is Inevitable to lose someone. For now there are no cures for death, no one can bring back the ones I love. So I will have to face the pain of losing you. One day I do hope that we can live longer so I can be with you for more than just 30 years or more. If one day I lose you I will lose my self.
This one day I am not ready for and I never will be.
