I'll Just Be Me

Chapter 1;

I've been excited to go to CAU for my whole life, this is the beginning to my future! I do admit I've been through alot to get here... but that's in the past and I'm ready to put that behind me. i mean, there can't be as much "drama" here, can it? I really shouldnt be nervous, i mean I have a right the same as anyone else to be happy, but why arent I?

"Charlotte are you coming down? Breakfast is ready dear." my nan called from the foot of the creaky old steps up to my shoe box of a room. Her voice chimed through the halls like the soothing sound of the tiny birds outside my home. I had two that came to my deck everyday, almost like a wild pet. I named them Nickie and Peter because i assumed they were in love. Thats one of the only things i get to look forward to everyday, beside my dream of CAU.

"Coming," i said groggy while trying to regain my vision enough to look at the digital clock on my nightstand. "Its only 7:49 Nanna." i tiredly complained as i slowly sat up out of my squeaky bed and eventually pulled myself out of it.

Blindly I felt my way around my room, bumping into my bookshelf in the process i was able to somehow make my way down our little stair case to our cute little sixties themed kitchen.

"Good morning sunshine!" my nan said as she seen me stumble my way into the kitchen doorway.

"Morning." i replied once i caught my balance and finally regained my vision. I swear i cant see for at least twenty minutes after i wake up. I walked into our sweet little kitchen and slowly walked over to the table while yawning. I started to pull out one of the 4 decorated chairs far enough so i could sit down and eat my eggs and toast but suddenly, with a loud crack, the front left leg of the chair snapped in half and fell to the floor with a little bumping sound.

"I am so..." i tried to appologize before i was cut off.

"Its alright hunny, its just a chair." nan said while she bent down to sadly examine the broken peice of wood on the floor. "I swear the only thing that works around here is me." she tried to joke but slowly loosing her fake smile and pulled the broken chair with its missing peice out of the room.

I looked around to see that the room was all tidied up besides the sink full of last nights dishes which were usually my job to clean but seems go be already started. The room is flooded with various nick-nacks of candleholders and flower pots with the smothering smell of flowers mixed with the stereotypical 'old person smell'. This place was home to me, and i loved every single thing about it.

"Okay well i guess ill fix that later," Nanna huffed while she walked back into the room and placed her skinny arms onto her boney hips. I jumped which made me breaking out of one of my reaccuring dazes.

The kitchen was her favourite room of her 2 bed, 1 bath, cottage like house. She had it decorated from basement to attic with doodads, flowers, anything that her frail heart desired i made sure she would get. It makes sense because i besides grampy am the only person she has left. I would do anything in the world to make her happy, so knowing i will be leaving her to go across the pond literally breaks my heart but i have to go. Theres no way im not. I still have until 9:30 tomorrow morning left before i go so i will just spend every second with her until then.

Chapter 2;

I guess i havent told you much about me, but what is there to know? My name is Charlotte Evergreen (but i prefer Lottie because i dont like my name, only Nanna can call me by my real name). I am a nineteen year old soon to be California Athletes University student, i am originally from Manchester, England but i currently live in Cornwall, England aka the town no one has heard of. If you didnt know I'm also british but i was hoping you would have guessed that already. Football is my passion (or what Americans call soccer), i spend at least thirty-two hours either practicing or at the gym every week, thats the whole reason i got a scholarship to CAU. So yes i have to go from the U.K. to California, but if thats what it takes to livebmy dreams then so be it.

If you want me to go in specifics about myself i guess i will. I have breast length naturally curled silky Mocha brown hair, and not huge curls but actuall ringlets throughout all of my hair. I also have green eyes, an ok smile i guess, two big and apparently 'hot' but very annoying dimples, oh and I'm also five foot seven inches. I am very fit aswell so that makes me very skinny too, but i have to admit, i do have a big butt. Alright enough talking about me because thats all you need to know.

"Charlotte are you listening?" Nan questioned me as i stared out of the window. I jumped and quickly grasped my way back to reality.

"Sorry Nanna i must of been in a daze." i quickly said while i looked at her with appologettic eyes. She should be aware, i daze off alot.

"Its alright honey, i was just asking if you were all packed to leave for America," she said unhappily then looked at our chipped tiled floor. "If you need help packing i would be happy to help you, i always am. If not then i guess you're free to go practice, like you always do every second of the day. See you when you get back..." she said, particially sad but also trying to guilt me into staying. She turned to scrub leftover spagetti sauce off if the dirty dishes but peeked back at me and batted her gray eye lashes.

"Uhm im almost all packed, but i do need some help picking out jewelry, books and things like that if you want to help?" it worked, she always can win me over and she knows it.

"I would be glad to!" she suddenly cheered up while dropping the still dirty plate into the sink of soapy water and dishes. "I'll finish those later," she winked and grinned at me while she made her way out of the kitchen.

"I love you nan, and grampy too. I dont want to leave you two behind, Im going to miss you both." i sadly said under my breathe while i watched the bundle of joy of my grandmother dance out of the small kitchen to my even smaller room.

I trailed behind her to my room, she was humming an old tune while going up the stairs and examining her daisys and marigolds. She is sixty-seven but has the energy of a fifty year old, which i love about her. The day she di... no, thats not going to happen to me. It cant happen, i love her too much, and shes not that old, she sometimes fixes my car for goodness sakes, so im not going to be thinking of thinking of that while im gone.

"Okay so," she started while dumping my jewelry box onto my freshly made bed. "Which do you fancy? You have some necklaces," she exclaimed while categorizing the jewelry as she went along. "Heres some earings, some rings, bracelets..." she stopped dead in ger tracks and stared at the peice she had in her wrinkled fingers.

"Moms locket," i struggled to say without choking up. "I thought i lost it, im so happy its here!" i delicatly picked it up out of her hands and held it close to my heart.

"You know she would be proud of you, right?" she asked me carefully while i caressed the shiny skinny chain with a engraved silver heart resting in the middle.

I slowly pulled the locket from my chest and studied it "Of course, CAU was her dream for me, and i know..." i started to choke up and tears started sliding down my cheeks, some running in my dimples then falling from my chin. "I know she would be more proud then some one could ever be." I proudly finished my statement. I believed it one hundred percent too, she doesnt have to be with me, to be here, for me to know its true.

"Hunny dont cry," nan gently wiped the tears of my rosey cheeks. "I know it too, everyone does." she said while pulling me onto her brittle lap and resting her head onto mine. "You are going to follow your dreams and go to that school, and you are going to do amazing things because you are Luaretta's daughter, and better yet you are an Evergreen! " i tried interupting her but she proceeded anyways. "And Evergreens never back down okay hunny?" her strong tone suddlenly turning gentle and soothing when she looked down at me.

"Right Nanna." I looked up at her wrinkled face and agreed. She is my rock, i dont know how i am going to manage without her.