Regret (Jacksepticeye X Reader)

Goodbyes Hurt

(I'm sorry if this one is depressing. One of my close friends that moved to Texas just died by a suicide attempt
So please if your sensitive to that stuff do not read this!!)

Your POV

I couldn't be happier to be back it jacks arms. They were warm. I look at the door and the doctor walks in and begin to speak "You may go in a few hours after we make sure that your injuries won't begin to bleed again." He says. I nod "Okay, thank you doctor." The doctor nods and leaves the room.

Time skip

After we got home, I go inside and flop onto the bed. I sit up and look at Jack "Jack come here!" I say in a little baby voice and hold my arms out. Jack chuckles and hugs me softly. Jack cuddles me and I slowly fall asleep. When I wake up I look for jack who wasn't in the bed anymore. I walk downstairs and look around he wasn't in the kitchen, but when I look in the front room, there was jack sitting on the couch. I walk over to him and sit next to him. Be smiles at me brightly.

A few months later!!

Ever since the accident jack has been cautious about me. One morning I wake up and there's jack. Sitting in front of me. I look at him and smile. I kiss his forehead and he looks down. I blink "Jack you okay..?" Jack looks at me, his blue eyes a lighter shade of blue "Y/N....I need to talk to you..." He says slowly. I nod "Go on." He twiddles with the blankets. "I've been thinking about that incident that happened..... It was my fault....and I don't want it to happen to you again..." He says. I knew where this was going but I tried to keep my cool. Jack continues "I just think...that....we should take a break....." With those words i felt like i just got stabbed with a sword. I felt warm tears building in my eyes. Before jack looks up I run out before he sees my tears. I stay at a hotel for a few days. I never left the room and no matter how many times jack calls or texts me I just ignore him and cry in my pillow. I finally decide to leave my room. So I shower brush my hair and drive to Jacks house. I walk in to see Jack sitting on the couch. He looks at me about to say something but I just walk to my room "don't say a single word jack!" I yell. I begin to box my stuff. I take the septic Sam plushy I had and throw it into Jack's room along with everything else he gave me. I carry my stuff to my car when I see jack walking towards me. I stop and look at him "What!?" Jacks icy blue eyes look hurt "Y/N....." He says. I burst into tears and get into my car. "I'm sorry..." Jack says and walks back inside. I drive back to the hotel room and cry more and more. A few days later I get a call. It states that your grandfather has died. I begin to cry, my grandfather was the only family member i had left that cared about me. When I hear this I sit on my bed and think for a bit. Jack left me and i never want to see him again, and my grandfather is dead, my parents hate me..I have no one.....I walk to the kitchen and grab a small steal knife. I put it up to my wrist. I take one slice. I missed the vain so I keep cutting one at a time going up my arm. I pass out from blood loss. After a few days of recovering I do it again. The cuts are deeper and bleed more. I hear knock at the door. I stand up "One second!" I clean off my arm and put on a jacket to cover the cuts. I open the door and its jack. I begin to shut the door but jack catches it and allows himself in. He looks at me "Why are you wearing a jacket its hotter than hell in here." he says. I look at the jacket. It was turning red my arm has begun to bleed again. I hide my arm behind my back and jack looks at me then at the floor. My blood was dripping onto the floor. Jack grabs my arm and lifts the jacket sleeve. His eyes widen "what the hell!? Why did you do this!?" I begin to cry "You left me! You were all i
I had left! I just found out that my grandfather died! I had nothing! I came to you because I had no one to go to! I told you that!" I cry. Jack looks at you with hurt eyes "I thought this would protect you..." He says. "Cutting me out of your life would never help me! I would rather die knowing I had something! Instead of dying with nothing at all!" I cry and try to push Jack away. But jack had a tight grip. I soon give up and cry more. "Please Y/N.... " Jack says. I cry more and collapse onto jack hugging him tightly. Jack hugs back and I slowly fall asleep, it was nice to be back in jacks arms they were warm and comforting

(Please don't kill me!!!)