Is there a time when you thought you're so long over him, but then all of a sudden you think about him?
Here's my story. Its been 4 years since we broke up, oh and by the way he broke up with me. He told me that i need to fix myself. At first it hurt and did a lot of stupid things because of that hurt. I couldn't accept it because i was too complacent that he would not leave me, thats he's so inlove with me. But guess what, he did. Then i thought about it, he was right. I really needed to fix my life. I have no job, no money, very dependent of him that he even sends me money. So as time passed by, i accepted it. I was beginning to be okay. He even had a new girlfriend and i was okay, and i thought i was already okay. We even communicated couple of times and i was okay. Then i found out that they broke up and now has a new girlfriend again. But this time i feel different. Its like theres something inside thats been opened again. Like i dont know, am i envy or what. And infact i also have a boyfriend. Everytime i open his facebook page, and yes im kinda stalking, theres this something pinching in my heart. When i see that they're so happy, accepted by his family, and all. Because in our time, his family never liked me. Like i only met his mom once, then everytime he post pictures of us he was told to delete it and all. And guess what, i have this feeling and thinking, what if i didnt agree with the break up, what if i fought for it, will we still be together? Our relationship lasted 6 years. Well... what ifs of life. Why am i hurting? Why now? Isn't it 4 years late reaction? I have no answers to these questions.
