Invisible

Chapter 20

Chapter 20:

Other than hugs, we really didn't touch that night. He was too gentle, too caring, and I almost felt as if – as if he was too loving.

But that would be stupid of me. It was just because of the lack of communication between him and his wife, maybe. It couldn't be more. He only needed a warm body.

However, I didn't know how to explain the fact that he didn't bed me that night if he only wanted someone to warm his bed. I didn't know. I only knew that I couldn't have these insane thoughts about King Edward holding something of affection for me.

He talked a lot as we both laid on our sides on the bed, facing each other, I only smiled, nodded, or laughed at his words, he was just too kind and a true noble.

"Maybe it's just me, Beautiful Eyes." He said after a pause of silence. "Maybe I can't father children." My eyes widened. It was very hard for a man to say such things, and the fact that he was telling them to me meant that he really thought highly of me about keeping secrets. Or maybe – trusted me even.

"That's right, don't be so shocked." He said when he saw the look in my eyes. "I've been with Kate for years, and now you. I know we were only together for a few days, but still – you bled."

I swallowed thickly, he was too sad and almost – depressed. I'd never seen him this way before and I knew I had to tell him of many things.

I knew I couldn't just leave him this way, but I was too scared of what was to become of me and my father if I spoke, and above all – I would break King Edward's heart. I would break it if I told him all about his wife's wicked ways of doing things as she loved for it to be. But I was a coward, I couldn't. I just couldn't.

"Maybe I could never be a father. Maybe I shouldn't be a king after all." His voice broke on his last words, and it just broke me to hear that, then I knew – I just knew I had to tell him.

"My Lord," I spoke, to what his eyes sized in response to. "I – uh, I have something important to tell you."

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