Homicidal love (Troye Sivan fanfic)

I see him

Oh my god I see him he's so hot but he's a senior and I'm only sophomore, he'll never fall for me. His name is Connor and I was in love with him, sure I've never talked to him but we've shared some lovely moments. Like this one time I asked him if I can borrow a pencil and he lent me it and winked at me. He says he's straight but I still love him.
I only know so much about him cause my best friend Halsey is his friend too. She tells me everything about him. He's caught me staring at him like 1 or 2 times, or 3, maybe 7 but who's counting. He doesn't seem to mind it, whenever he catches me, he just smiles.
I went to school and we had P.E. together. He's one of those kids that just sits there and talks to his friends. I was staring at him again and he caught me... again, I guess that's 8. This time when he caught me he smiled and winked. God I love it when he winks at me.