Why?

Chapter 3

So me and Joel got in a huge fight two days ago... He thinks that he's "putting more into the relationship then I am." Like seriously? So whatever... Anyways we are not broken up but we are not speaking.
Anyways... We were in lunch yesterday, and this new guy walks in. All the freshmen automatically put fresh lip gloss on their chapped lips (how, cute.) But all the juniors at my table were saying things like "oh my god he's so hot" and "wow" and "excuse me but is anyone else TOTALLY turned on?" All the girls at the table were like "uhh... HELL YEAH!" He walked by and they all let out a deep sigh. Then there's me... The guy was not attractive at all and I didn't get "turned on" at all. Actually I've never really been turned on by anyone now that I think about it. In art club everyone is always googling pictures of hot guys to stare at and I find no interest in them at all. Weird. Whatever.
So today... A new girl came into class. One of the jocks did one of those smooth "whistle for the hottie" things. The other guys followed. I took one look at her, and for some reason, my mind goes, "hell yeah." Wait. What? No no no. I shake my head out of the zone and stared at a hot guy in the corner of the room. The rest of the class I tried to convince my self that he was so amazingly hot... Nothing. Whatever. I'm just not that kind of obsessive girl right? Yeah. Right. Ok. Good. You got it.
I was actually relieved when I saw that new guy for the second time and I thought he was very attractive... Phew! For a while there I thought something was wrong with me! Hah.
Emma's coming over after school tomorrow. I'm so excited. I haven't talked to her in a couple days and I miss her. We have only one out of three days when we got to see each other a lot... So I haven't talked to her in 2 days. Except for texting and stuff... But it's different when we are together in person. Maybe we can just sit on the couch and watch a movie. I can't wait.
I also miss Joel obviously... Whatever... We can figure it out. I mean there shouldn't be any more problems involving feelings or anything. It should be fine!