poetry

i do not like the feeling

26.3.16

i do not like the feeling
of being swallowed whole.
i do not like the feeling
of being swallowed whole
by my clothing
its only use to hide.
i do not like the feeling
of being swallowed whole
by you.
crushing me
between you vicious jaws
of hopelessness and despair.

i do not like the feeling
of being emptied.
i do not like the feeling
of being emptied
by the feeling
of loneliness.
i do not like the feeling
of being emptied
by you.
your tongue
sucking my every
last drop of energy.

i do not like the feeling
of being torn apart.
i do not like the feeling
of being torn apart
by society
blood thirsty and heartless.
i do not like the feeling
of being torn apart
by you.
looking to rip
the space behind
my lifeless eyes.

i don't like the feeling
of you.
i don't like the feeling
of you
in the same way that
i don't like the feeling
of drunk.
no matter what it does to me
i will always go back.
whatever you do or say to me
i will always come back.
you are the feeling of drunk.
happy and trusting at first
but much colder
after a few sips.