First Time • An August Alsina Story

18. IT's yoU

A L Y X X.

Its been a few days and August been avoiding my calls. I begged him to let me explain but he wouldn't. I had bruises all over my face and body but they were healing. I haven't been to work and I haven't been out the house I just keep crying. I had to sit on Ronnie cuz she wanted to shoot him for what he did to my face but the swelling right now.

I know he didn't mean it I could see it in his eyes, he was just mad at the moment cuz if he would see what he did to me he would hate himself for him.

Pulling up to August trap I seen his car parked. I've been looking everywhere for him this was the last place me and Ronnie was going to look.

"Just go talk to him" Ronnie said patting my shoulder. Getting out the car I walked up to the trap and knocked on the door. Antonio looked at me then looked around before letting me in.

"Follow me" He said going down a hall way with me following closely behind. The looks people gave me didn't make me feel better about the whole situation.

"Alyxx Is here" Antonio said opening the door and I walked in to see August and his Boys playing black opps. Every body looked at me and back at August as he played the game not even looking at me.

"August can I talk to you?" I asked in a low voice but I knew he could hear me. That didn't make him move tho.

"August can I talk to you?" I asked again. I turned to leave the room but I couldn't. I turned back around and walked up to him taking the controller out his hand.

"August I'm sorry okay. I'm sorry but I swear I didn't know you and DeSean had problems Cuz If I did I wouldn't have went to see and I wouldn't have gave him money. You w-are my boyfriend August I didn't tell him anything. We had a deep connection I would never lie to you August. If I had Lied I wouldn't be standing here now. But, I am Cuz I need you to believe I never once lied to you August... I love you" I said as tears fought to come out my eyes.

"Say something" I said slamming the corrector on the glass table making it break.

"Yhu done?" He asked shrugging his shoulders.

"Hmm. Yeah I'm done Handsome. I'm done" I said grabbing his keys out my pocket and throwing them in his lap.

"I'm done" I said running out the room with tears streaming down my face.

Getting into the car with Ronnie I broke down crying.

"Alyxx" She said patting my back.

"Just go! JUST GO!"

I tried everything to get him back after what he did to me. I love August I do but I don't deserve this shit.

Running into my bathroom I cried.

"Ahh" I yelled out punching my hand into the mirror.

"Fuck" I said looking down at the glad in my hand. I didn't even pick it off I just started laughing. I picked one of the big pieces of glass and brought it to my wrist.

"I'm sorry August" I said cutting a line. It hurt like hell but I didn't care.

"I'm sorry" I cried after cutting four lines deep into my skin.

"Oh honey" Ronnie and Ashley said coming in the bathroom.

"Please get out. Please just get out"

"No Babe"

"We not going anywhere" Ronnie said taking the glass out my hand and wrapping a towel around my cuts.

"I'm sorry" I cried again