The belittling had destroyed me, but being the person I am, I simply ignored it. Built a wall around me so strong that not even the harshest of words could attempt to dent it, let alone break it. Being the unemotional person I was expected to be, I simply isolated myself from feeling any emotions and moved in with life as per normal
This was my way of dealing with it. My way of excepting my situation and finding closure. I always thought this was the best way... The only way, but little did I know that my way would be put to the test.
The day came unexpectedly, like a blooming rose in Autumn. I simply woke up, went to school and suddenly nth baddest of the bad had taken an interest in me. The one guy I thought didn't know of my existence actually knew more about me than I did. We'd never spoken before nor even looked twice at each other and now he seemed to like me... me of all girls!
That made me suspect something was up because I wasn't the prettiest, smartest or most athletic girl at school. I was simply a shadow but he noticed me, the guy every bitch wanted, the one they all dressed up for and did stupid ( and might I add slutty ) things to be noticed by, the one they tried so hard to be perfect for had taken an interest in simple, boring, imperfect me. I didn't know why, but I didn't like it either.
I just wanted to stay in my shadow, dissappear into my own world with no disturbances whatsoever but he didn't seem to get the idea. The more I tried to hide my existence and dissappear into my shadow, the more interest he showed. The more I tried to hide in my shadow, the more he tried to expose me. No matter what I did, this guy was determined to invade my world in which I only longed to be left alone.
" Why do you hate me so much Hope? " he asked that afternoon as I desperately tried to ignore him, so I simply shot him a ' leave me alone ' look and replied " Simply because I know people like you Brian "
On my way home I tried to make sense of it all but it just wasn't adding up. I was the tomboy, the weirdo, the memory of a memory at school and a guy who liked preppy, perfect, bubbly girly girls was now suddenly into me. This couldn't be, it had to be a trap or a bet he had made or something. I mean this guy was the biggest player in school who barely knew my name about a week ago and now he suddenly liked me! There was no way in hell that was true. "It's a bet, it has be. This guy can't suddenly be into me, it's impossible. " I argued, " But it's over now," I tried reassuring myself, " you told him how you fell and he'll leave you alone. "
Little did I know that this was just the beginning of something I wasn't ready for.
