Is This Love?

Chapter One - surprise

Dear diary, 

     So i think that's how i should start this. My mom is making me write in this. She says im way to insecure, and that writing down my problems can help. I DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM!!! All i am is just insecure and shy. Anyway, my name is Skylar and I'm 18 years old. i have long brown hair, and brown eyes. i don't have many friends except my very best friend Jordan. Its so cool, we were bor at the exact same time in the same room. Our parents were best friends. So... ya.  

     I only have one thing that helps me through things. One Direction.  They help me. No matter what mood I'm in they lift me up. when i start cutting.. (oh ya i forgot to mention that) i listen to them, and i put down the knife. just seeing a picture of them put a smile on my face. But then i go to school and i feel alone. Its like in movies, when the person if having a bad day and they walk into school. Every ones in slow motion, smiling and having fun, not noticing them. That's how i feel. I used to be so happy and talkative, and just hyper. but now, after... Luke, that's all changed

-Sky

I close the book and throw it to the other side of my room. i lay down on my bed and look at my ceiling, remembering Luke and what he did to me. I remembered how much  I loved him, and how stupid i was. I start crying and cant stop. I start to think of going into my bathroom, and cut. But of course i hear a knock at the door. 

"Come in" i yell. quickly wiping my eyes and putting a smile on face. 

"Honey, dinners ready." she tells me as i can smell the sweet sent of chicken. 

"OK can you give me five minutes?" i ask knowing i cant go down their with puffy red eyes. 

She nods and walks away. I walk to my bathroom, wash my face, and pt a cream around my eyes to make the redness go away. I pull my long hair up into a ponytail. and jog downstairs looking as happy as possible. 

"Hey Dad" i say seeing my dad at the table reading the newspaper.

"Hey Sweetie" he replied not looking up.

I walk into the huge kitchen just as my big brother, Steven, and my mom bring plates out. 

We all sit down and start eating. Its really quiet, just like any old night. 

"Should we tell her?" my dad asks looking at my mom.

She looks at me and smiles. "Skylar, we know your going through a hard time, and you've lost yourself. we understand. We also know that you love One Direction, and that they help you more than anything."

She stopped, no don't stop at the good part. I start getting really excited.

My dad smile at my mom, then me. "for an early birthday present, we got you One Direction tickets. Surpise! " he tells me covering his ears. 

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I scream out as loud as i possibly can. My parents laugh at me and smile.

I go over and hug them each. 

"you know Steven gave up all of his allowance for three months for this, plus he offered it." my dad tells me.

"you'd do that for me?" i ask him smiling and holding my hand over my heart. 

"Of course! I care about you and love you. Anything to make you happy again." he tells me smiling.

I run over and give him the biggest hug. 

"thank you so much!" I tell him squeezing harder. 

"your welcome sky" He says handing me two tickets. "one for you and one for Jordan." 

I scream again, give them all hugs, the run out the door. Jordan lives like one block away from me so i just run to  her house.

I storm in the door like its my house, it practically is. There family. 

"JORDAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i yell knowing shes in her room. 

She instantly runs down the stairs and almost falls. 

"WHAT?! ARE YOU OK?!" 

"Better than OK." i tell her. A confused look instantly pops on her face.

I hold up the tickets and her hand moves toward one slowly as she grabs it. She reads it and screams. We start jumping around, and screaming like idiots.  Her parents come in and we show them the tickets and me and Jordan freak out again. 

This has been my dream since the X-Factor. Its finally coming true.

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Hey guys so what do you think so far?! please let me know!! thanks so much! i cant wait to get this book going and I'm really excited. Please give me some advice if you have any.

Thanks guys.

love you!

~Em