Old Feelings (girlxgirl)

Chp.2-Back To School

Great....im back to my stupid school. God i hate it here i dont know why i decided to come back it was my choice and i shouldnt have choose it. So many people here hate me i have only two friend's so why would i choose to come back? Ugh oh well something good will come from this right? God i hope so.

Well its the first day of school and im so nervous to go back, its been a year and ive changed alot. I used to be a little bit shorter, i used to have long hair and wore only sweats and sweatshirts cause i used to be a little fat i say. But now im finally the person i wanna be. Now im a bit taller 5'5" in fact. I cut my brown hair short like a guys but i love it people can finally see my blue eyes and my jawline. I lost some weight from working out and now i have muscle and abs, not great ones but they're there. I may look like a guy but Im finally looking how i want.

Im still a little bit shy, not many people have seen me in a year and a half only two people have and they've been my bestfriends for a long time. Their names are Jen and Stacy i love them their like my sisters. Jen has short brown hair too and if you havnt noticed yes i am gay, yes i like girls. So does Jen thats why we get along so well we have alot in common. Stacy nope shes 100% straight she likes guys and has a boyfriend names Shane. He's a bit of well lets just say a bit of an asshole. But since Stacy "loves" him i dont say anything even though hes hurt her so many times.

Well this should be a great year, me dealing with his ass and her complaining at least Jen has someone who treats her well, her girls name is Katty shes a sweetheart. She treats Jen right.

God what have i been talking about this is supposed to be about school. Okay so im getting ready and im trying to figure out what to wear. Should stay simple with jeans and a plain shirt, or wear my favorite button up shirt and jeans with cuts in them? Well since its my first day back im gonna try to show off how much ive changed. Im going off the charts. Im going to wear my timberlands, with light jeans with holes im them, then a green holister shirt with green plad over it. "Yes this looks awesome." i say to myself while looking im he mirror. I brush my teeth and fix my hair its a bit messy but it looks good so im gonna keep it.

I walk down to catch my bus and i only wait a couple minutes when i see it coming up the hill. I get super nervous, what do i say if someone i know is on it? Do i just smile or sit next to them and have a conversation? Oh my god so many choices what do i pick?!? Well i walk onto the bus i notice only one familiar face but she doesnt reconize me, thank god so i sit by myself put my headphones in and wait till we arrive at school.

As we arrive to my school my heart begins pounding faster and faster. I stand up as everyone else does. Who do i walk with maybe i should text Jen and tell her to meet me at the lunch room. Yes im going to do that. So i text her this "Jen im nervous coming back to this school, meet me at the lunch room so i dont look like a loner." she textes back really fast " ok ill be right over." thank god i thought at least i can walk with her. Only a few minutes later Jen walks up. I yell her name and people look at me. My face gets red then i think oh well shes my friend i can yell her name if i want to. So me and her walk twords where the other 9th graders are. The ninth and tenth are close to each other and to get to my grade i have to walk past the tenth. When im walking by i notice im getting really weird looks like as if im fresh meat to them i get creeped out and look the other way.

I walk up to Stacy and Shane, Jen and i standing and waiting for the first bell to ring. When it did i stayed silent and walked up to my locker then to my first class. That classes go by pretty fast and i notice more and more people have wanted to start being friends with me like a girl Sydney then Tracey then a guy Ben who i used to be super close with so i talk to him during most of the classes i have with him. I guess this day didnt go by so badly.

And few more days go by then a couple weeks. Now its the beginning of October. One day I'm on facebook and notice this beautiful girl by the name of Claire. "Damn" i said out loud "whos she??" I scroll through her page, yes a little stakerish but i cant help it shes hot, hot, hot! Damn i wonder whos shes friends with. "No Fuckin Way! Shes friends with Jen and Katty and they even have pics up together. Omg maybe they can hook me up with her." i say "damn im so talking to Jen tomorrow."