A book full of random things

May 8th

I smiled as I walked through old iron gate. As it let out a high pitched creaking sound, I exhaled the breath I was holding. I walked through the rows of boring gray stones, until I came to the largest on. It was in the shape of a fox that had a necklace hanging around its neck. The necklace was like mine, a dark colored sphere that looked as if it was on fire. Nevertheless it was beautiful. I sat down in front of the sculpture and placed the hybrid tiger rose down on the front of the grave. The white and red flower always suited us anyways.

"Hey, I know you wouldn't be to proud of me for what I've done, and how I've never seen you before, but I just wanted to speak to you" I said as if she would be able to hear me. 

The wind blew around my hair, but I could care less. My head felt as if it would explode. Is this what feelings are like? If it was, I don't like it

"I love you, even if we never had a conversion with each other, I love you..." I said as something wet fell from my eye down my cheek. What is this? It isn't raining, is it? No I'm-I'm crying?

"I might not be the daughter you wish I was but I'm trying.. I'm trying to be nice, gain friend and allies, but it seems I have more enemies" I said sadly "But I learned piano and violin." I said happily, as if it where worth something.

"I also found dad and my older brother. They live in a castle. A really nice one...Oh! I found one of the seven witches. The one that keeps nature in order. Her name is Flora. She's only 10, and love everyone, even if they hate her"

"And-" I had to stop because I started sobbing "And- I miss you. Please...Can you tell me where you went? I hate this world. It isn't fair at all! The best people die, and the worst ones live. The evil always win, and the good get punished. For what? Trying to help other? Putting other first even if they know they could get killed for it? I-I don't want to be in this world!" I screamed sobbing loudly

"Please tell me why this is? Shall the evil always win in the end?" I said calming down.

"Will I make it out of this alive? Will my friends, or will we loose to this..." I asked for the last time.

I gave one last look at the grave in front of me and let more tears fall down my face and on to the concrete below me. As I walked away, I let out one more small whisper.

"I'll see you soon....Mom, I love you"