Spy (JacksepticeyeXreader)

~chapter 13~

Mark's pov~

I can't remember anything. This guys seem to going through a lot and i can't help them. Especially this (y/n). She is strong i can tell, she just don't know it. I wish i could remember. I don't want to hurt them or to torture them. I want to remember so badly. I do. I want to be there for them and with them.

I sighed. (Y/n) and Sean came back in. (Y/n) smiled and i smiled back. We sat there talking until it was night time and they had to go. I fell asleep immediately once they had left.

Your pov~

It's 3 am. They are all asleep. Mark at the hospital, Felix and Marzia at their bedroom, where i used to sleep with Zoe, and Sean at the living room. I was at the guest room. It has 2 beds. I don't know why Sean didn't want to sleep here. I can't sleep. I'm sitting on the bed thinking. I miss Zoe so much. Tomorrow is her funeral. Why?! Why did all those things happened?!

I was thinking and then i started singing:

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion.

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep
And it's been two years I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me.

As i finished the song i heard a knock on the door. Oh my God. Did i wake them up? Did they hear me?! Oh God, oh God. I heard another knock.

"Y-yeah?" I stuttered.

The door opened and walked in a surprised Sean, a surprised Marzia and a surprised Felix.

"S-s-sorry guys. Did i wake you up?" I aksed nervously.
"Nonono (y/n). We couldn't sleep. Felix and I couldn't sleep so we got up and went to the living room and saw that Sean was awake as well. Then, we heard you singing." Marzia said.

I blushed. I don't want others to hear me sing. I don't think my voice is so nice. I do want to sing but without people hear me.

"Your voice is amazing (y/n)." Sean said.
"What?!" I asked surprised.
"You should sing more often." Felix said.
"Yes." Marzia said.
"I agree." Sean said.
"Guys are you serious right now? My voice isn't that amazing." I said.
"Are you kidding me? Your voice is wonderful." Marzia said. I blushed again.
"Thanks." I said.
"Can you sing something else? Pretty pleaaaaase?!" Sean said.
"Ummm... I suppose i can. Let me think which one though." I said trying to think a song to sing. The room went silent for a little.
"Alright. I found one." I said braking the silence. And i began singing:

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take the gun, and count to three
I'm sweating now, I'm moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart, beating,
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified but I'm not leaving, no
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.

Say a prayer, to yourself
He says, close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get, a scary thought
That he's here, means he's never lost

And you can see my heart, beating,
Now you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering will I, ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye
But it's too late to think of the value of my life

And you can see my heart, beating,
Now you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving, no!
I know that I must pass this test
And you can see my heart, beating,
Oh you can see it through my chest
I'm terrified but I'm not leaving, no!
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.

They all clapped as i finished the song. I blushed hard.

"Thanks." I said smiling.
"MORE!" Sean shouted.
"Shhh, Sean. It's 3:30 am. People are sleeping." Felix said.
"Sorry. MORE!" Sean whisper-yelled this time.

I chuckled and started singing another song. And then another. And another. I ended up singing a lullaby at about 5 am. They all fell asleep. Felix and Marzia at the other bed and Sean at the bed i was supposed to be asleep. I laid down next to him and drifted to sleep into his arms. It is easier to sleep when you are in the arms of the person you love.