Tears that never came

My eyes are red from shedding

Tears that never came

And my heart is burnt from heartbreak

But I've never had a flame

I'm bleeding all over my body

But you 'll never find a gash

But I am crumbling apart

And soon I will be ash

My throat is sore from screaming

Words that never came

I keep my pains hidden

And the silence is my name

I've been stabbed in the back many times

And yet I still live

But don't ask me to done blood

I don't have any to give

I have suffocated

From holding my own breath

I have caused my own pain

And I fear causing my own death

Yes I have many cuts

I have several bruises

But what the mind wants

Is what the mind chooses

I don't want this pain

But I do it to myself

I've taken all my good thoughts

And hidden them on my shelf

My words and thoughts are poison

On a rusted knife

I've stabbed my own heart

And taken my own life

And I take my red eyes,

My raw throat,

My stabbed back,

My broken lungs

And my burnt and stabbed and damaged heart,

And I hide them away

That's how I do it you see

Instead of a gunshot

I hide my wounds away

And I leave them there to rot