One Last Time K?

And War Breaks Them Down

Now for all the stupid things I say (there are many) this is something you should probably quote me on. Hell I'll quote myself. "The echos of the past are only heard by those who care nothing for the future." Look I don't know if it's been said before. Probably has. Famous truths often are forgotten in time. Maybe that was one. But it is still a truth, famous once or soon or never even. Lately I've found myself lost in thought remembering a time when I had a father.... Now that seems like a long time ago although technically it seems like yesterday at the same time. Is that weird? Probably...I tend not to notice. But anyways I have heard the echos of the past for far too long. Scared of what will come and looking to a time before now for comfort. Although it brings little comfort. Often the opposite. I am a jealous person to begin with but there was a time when it was a lesser feeling. A little pull on my heart whenever I felt threatened by someone. But one time the jealousy had purpose. I lost someone because I wasn't "good enough". Now my jealousy is uncontrollable. Often taking over my thoughts completely. Looking into the past has caused me to be scared of anyone being close to me and frankly I'm sick of it. I want to be able to think about my future without going back to the past where my dad beat the shit out of me and my "friends" left me. I need to trust in people and stop having a war within my self. Trust may leave you open for pain but it's better than living in fear. It's time to forget the echos of my past.