I'm over us.

PART ONE BEGINNING OF GOODBYE.

I sigh as I zip up my suitcase laid on the bed I take one final deep breath in, I've never been so sure that this is the right decision purely for the benefit of both me and jay. 5 years we've been together and I was happy for the first 2.. And after all this time I've realised how much I've put up with from this careless man, and I could finally say Id had enough. This meaning enough of the lies. The others. And the emotional pain. I was finally done.

"Going somewhere?" A familiar voice speaks up,I shut my eyes tight  "yes,I am actually" I can't possibly bare to face him so I stay facing away. "might I ask where?" He asks sounding genuinely concerned, which he was

I slowly turned around to face him, stood there leaning against the door, he looks so effortlessly beautiful, his bright blue eyes, eyeing me up and down

I turn my attention to the window to my left attempting to avoid his question.but he walks in closer to me I take this moment to tell him what exactly Is going to happen "I'm leaving you jay."

He just stood there completely frozen in place, taking in exactly what I just told him "no your not" he says through a crocked quiet voice- certainly not harsh though "jay I have to do this, not just for me but for the both of us"

"What's bothering you?what happened. I will do anything to fix this!"

"What's done is done. I stayed with you because I loved you.i thought you was the one for me, if only you would have stopped the lying and the cheating would we have lasted, i believed you when you said you were done with the cheating and when you actually seemed more genuine than ever, fuck there is so much good in you for Christ sake jay, if you could have just be done when you said you were done we could have worked" I feel like I've explained this one too many times and I'm tired.well and truly tired.

"I love you Cheyenne" the words that I once loved and needed to hear the most I now hate.. "Don't. Don't you dare say that you love me, because we both know that you don't" I say watching the expression on his face fall.

"How can you think I don't love you? Yes. I've done you wrong so many times but I need you, you're the only person that's keeping me sane."

"Don't you understand I'm over y-" I shout but abruptly my words get cut off "you're over me?.."

"Yes. i'm over you." And with that being said I grab my suitcase and head out the bedroom door,I hear the sound of footsteps behind me as he's running for me down the hall, unable to keep a distance from him in front I feel the grip of his hand pull me back "Cheyenne think about what your doing please."

I sigh and shut my eyes "I have to go." I whispered "look after your self, i wont forget you" and with that. I left.