This part takes place sometime after chapter 50 and is mostly just his thoughts. I hope everyone enjoys
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Tobias: When Cara told me what had happened to Tris I already knew. I just didn't want to know, I wouldn't believe myself. I found out when I was watching the snow swirl around the window. It was a feeling I will probably never forget. It was like a pice of my heart was shattering. Somewhere inside me I knew this would happen. She was too kind to selfless, and the words she said to me before I left. She said when you have to choose between two bad options you choose the one that saves the ones you love. I should have known then even if she didn't. It should have been me who was there it should have been me who died. When Cara told me what happened the realization hit me that she was dead and it wasn't just my imagination it was the truth, the truth of this cruel word, because nothing in this world lasts very long. Even precious human lives could be gone in the blink of an eye. The memories I had of her came back in a blur. The first time I met her when she jumped first. All of the moments I spent with her. Capture the flag. Days go by without notice except that every day without her is a day of pain and grief. She was the only thing I cared for I had lost everything and there was nothing anyone could do about it. I can't bring myself to look at Caleb because he reminds me of her. Even if they look nothing alike. I can't bring myself to look into his eyes, her eyes, because I know they aren't real I know that he could never replace her, and even though they may be a different color they have the same soft kind look to them. When Caleb tells me her last words, I walk away not because I don't care but because I don't trust myself to speak. I don't trust myself that I won't break down so I just keep walking, but part of me knows that it won't help its just a distraction from the grief. Death is the true ruler of this world.
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Thank you for reading I hope you enjoyed this chapter . I am going to try to make one for everyone close to Tris after I make another on Tobias I want to focus on him to begin with. Please comment and leave suggestions!
