This Is Us (one direction fan fic)

Chapter 24: Secret plan

not much to say here really..

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bethxo

Darcy's P.O.V

Lately, i have been having horrible nightmares of the incident back in Liam's hometown. They have woken me up every time, but nobody's noticed. Nobody cares. i am so scared of going to sleep every night now. i am absolutely petrified of going out on my own :( . I am thinking of just going back home, i mean nobody is going to miss me, right?? I could go and live with Dani until the tour is over. She would let me stay at hers, she has already said so. 

I'm just going to see how today will go and i will then make my mind up. i have text Dani and she said that it would be no problem of me staying with her. 

I haven't spoken to no one except for el. I need someone to talk to, someone that wont judge me and that has really good advice. I mean, Liam was an option, but i can't talk to him, i find it hard! I don't even know whether he wants to speak to me to be honest. 

Nobody was in the bus, they had all left me, see i told you nobody cares. i just wanted to cry and get swallowed up by a black hole!

I asked el what the plan was for today and she said the boys are doing the same as yesterday. I said that i wasn't feeling too good and that i will stay on the bus...again. I really wnated el to stay with me, and tell her my plan of action to going to Dani's. 

"el?" I said as she was about to walk off the bus

"yes chick?" she said coming back to me

"errmm, have you erm got a minute or two to talk?"

"yes of course babe!" she said without no hesitation "so what's up?"

"well, i don't think i want to come on tour with the lads, i mean your the only one i talk to, Liam isn't speaking to me no more, and neither is anyone else, i have asked Dani whether i would be able to stay at hers and she said yes, so i need your advice on whether i should try and talk to Liam,...or give him a break"

"wow...that's a lot of deep meaning, i can see that you really like Liam, but if you want to go, then i can arrange a cab to Dani's" 

"i really don't think i will be able to talk to Liam for a while, so would you help me pack my things and call a cab?? i'll phone Dani whilst i am packing, like on loudspeaker so we can both speak to her." I said rushing to my bed. I didn't want noone to know i was going except for el. "oh and by the way, please don't tell ANYONE about this" i begged her

"aren't you going to say bye to anyone?" she had a point, but i wasn't going to be pressured into staying when nobody actually wanted me here. 

"only you" i said to el.

*half an hour later*

so all my stiff was packed, i had spoken to Dani and el had arranged the cab and gave me money for it. She had also booked me a flight using Louis credit card!! haha, I will hav to thank him next time i see him. It was due any minute now. The airport was about an hour away and then an hours flight, and then Dani is meeting me at the airport. I didn't mind though. anything to get away from here.

The cab pulled up....we were both getting teary and i had a lump in my throat. I gave el a huge hug, and she returned it. 

"thank you!" i said getting into the car and giving her one last hug "make sure you text me, haha" i said trying not to cry. 

"okay, will do!, have a safe journey and let me know when you get there" el said waving me off.

i am going to miss her. i am really glad that i am going to be spending the next two months with Dani. I can't wait. I tried not to think about the boys or my so called best friends Brooke and Brit. 

Eleanor's p.o.v

Gutted to see Darcy go, i went back to the studio and as usual Liam asked me how she was. I lied and said she was fine, just tired. Darcy had no idea how much she meant to Liam. ugh, what have i done?!?!?!

What am i going to tell Liam when he goes into the bus and can't find Darcy? What am i going to tell everyone when she isn't in her bed tonight?? I have fucked up, i wish i wouldn't of let her go..but its what she wanted and i didn't want to stop her if she was unhappy here with the lads. 

I had to think at what i was going to say to everyone, like how to come out with it. And i had to think quick

I wonder how Liam will take it. Because Liam has opened up to me the other day about how he felt about Darcy, and its exactly the same as what Darcy said, they like each other like mad, but they don't know how to talk to each other. because after the incident down Wolvo, they haven't been the same as they used to be. i hope they will work it out.

*4 hours later*

I only went back onto the tour bus once to talk to Darcy, well on the phone. she is all settled in at Dani's now and she had a safe journey there which is good, I asked her what i am going to tell the boys, she wants me to tell them the truth...that basically she wanted to go, she kept reassuring me that it wasn't my fault and it its what she wanted. 

i was last to step into the tour bus. when i came in earlier, Darcy had told me to do the pillow trick, so it looks like i am in bed. 

it actually worked though because Liam went looking for Darcy and he looked over to her bunk,  and thought she was asleep. i hate lying to everyone. i have got to tell them. 

Text message to: Darcy -

do you want me to tell everyone now that you have gone, or do you want me to keep it a secret until someone notices that you have gone? xxxxxx

Text message from Darcy - 

Its up to you hun, thank you for everything though!! i will miss you xxxxxx

so i can either break it to them now (most likely what i will do) or leave it until someone notices.

Liam's p.o.v

El had us all sat down because she has some very important news to tell us. Why wasn't Darcy here? Crap, whats happened??

I was sitting on the end of the sofa next to Harry, nobody else seemed to notice about Darcy!!

El started talking....

"so erm, as probably only one person has noticed" *looks at me* "that Darcy isn't with us at the moment" I noticed everyone looking around for her.

"Where is she?" Brooke asked

"She erm...left"

"SHE WHAT??" I shouted standing up. "WHERE, WHEN, WHY, HOW??" 

"I'll talk to you later Liam" she said giving me a death glare. Have i done something?? she probably left because i was being so selfish and stupid and not talking to her, omg how could i be so stupid!!!!

"So why did she leave?" Zayn asked

"she had some stuff to sort out" el replied

I walked over to one of the beds and sat on it. i felt so disappointed in myself for letting this happen and not noticing how unhappy she was!

El came over and sat with me

"Why did she go?" i said as my voice slightly broke

"she thought that nobody cared about her, and that she was feeling really down, she has gone to stay with Dani, so she's in safe hands, she also said to me that she has been having really bad nightmares about what happened in wolverhampton, and that erm....she didn't know how to talk to you and she couldn't handle not talking to you even though you were right infront of her. to be fair, she misses you, but she has just run away from it all., sorry liam" 

that hit me hard like a ton of bricks. I never knew she had feelings for me!! How could i be so stupid by not noticing though!

El noticed that i was finding it hard to take it all in, so she gave me a hug, it was nothing like Darcy's hugs though. It's all my fault, why didn't i have he guts to go and talk to her!!

"It's not your fault" el whispered, how did she know i was feeling guilty?? ugh ohwell. 

a/n

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