As kids, we used to be scared of a monster in or closet, or under our bed.
But now we're just scared of our own monsters, the monsters inside of us.
These monsters inside of us cause us to think terrible things, and do terrible things and get into terrible habits.
Such as, suicidal thoughts, attempting suicide, cutting ourselves, starving ourselves, drugs, alcohol, etc.
When we cut ourselves all we think is, "fuck how will I hide these tomorrow."
We look at our faded scars and just want more, I deserve to have more, to see more cuts on my body.
We feel empty inside, we feel nothing at all. We're numb.
We feel as if the Physical pain relieves the mental pain.
We just want to be normal.
"What's wrong with me?"
"When will it end?"
"I'm not as pretty as she is."
"I don't have that kind of money."
"I'm not athletic and fit like him."
These are a few things we all think to ourselves every second of every day.
You see, being depressed causes you to kill yourself mentally everyday.
That little happy boy you used to be, is gone now.
Now we're to the point where we're just scared.
We're scared we're actually gonna do something really bad.
We're scared of our own demons.
We're scared of losing our faith with God.
We're scared of ending up alone.
We're just scared of life.
Waking up, putting a fake smile on, going about your day like that.
It hurts.
It physically makes your heart ache.
When will it all be over?
When will our cuts fade, and we not want to add more?
When will the silence end?
When will we not have anymore demons?
When will we not be scared?
