why won't you love me || taeseok

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Taehyung•
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The munchies.

That's what Hoseok has right now. I stare at him from the living room. He has a joint in his mouth, while searching through the cabinets for food. He finds instant noodles and puts it in the microwave. He turns my way and gives me a wink. I continue to stare as he walks from the kitchen back to the living room. Never breaking eye contact with me. He kneels down in front of me, inhales from his joint, and blows the smoke in my face. I try not to breath it in, but some got in my lungs and I became to cough quietly. Hoseok just looked at me and inhaled another hit. This time, he just ghosted it. The microwave beeped and he got up from the ground. He walked back to the kitchen, leaving the strong smell of weed in his living room. Which, is not at all unusual.

He walks back to the living room and sits on the couch that is in front of his cheap tv. In his cheap one bedroom apartment. I'm on a couch that is facing the wall, but right now, I'm facing Hoseok. I stare at his brown eyes that are surrounded by the color red. He turns on the tv and my attention goes from him to the tv. He scrolls through the channels and stops at a cooking channel. He leaves it on there and begins to eat his now cooled down noodles. He always watches the cooking channel while he has the munchies. I sigh and look for my car keys. I see it on the table in the small dining room that's across from me, so I stand up and walk in front of Hoseok and his couch. His hand grabs my wrist though. I turn to him and he places his cup noodles in a cup holder. He releases my wrist and stands up. He's standing right in front of me and my knees are getting weak. How can someone so broken be so beautiful?

"Where are you going?" He says, leaning closer. I back away and clear my throat. "It's already two in the morning. I have work tomorrow." He closes his eyes and goes back to his spot on the couch. I lick my lips and go to the table to receive my keys. "Stay here."
I put my keys in my pocket. I didn't want to leave in the first place. Yes, I have work, but I don't like leaving Hoseok when he's high or drugged up. "Are you sure?" I say, not looking at him. "Yeah, my bed is big enough for the both of us." He probably doesn't remember because of the shit he's on, but I stay in his bed all the time. It's not big. Our bodies always end up touching each other. I'm not complaining though.

I nod my head and smile at him. He chuckles back at me. "I'm going to head to bed then." I start walking towards his room. I open the door and stare at the messy room. Clothes, and random shit is all over the room. The bed is the only things that is clean. It's surprisingly made. Usually the bed is messy and most pillows are missing under the bed. I feel arms wrap around my waist and my breath hitches. "I knew you were going to be staying." He whispers in my ear. His grip on my waist gets tighter as he starts to kiss my neck. I close my eyes and enjoy the moment. No, we're not dating, but we do sleep together. Always when he's high.

When he's not high, he acts sweet and romantic. He doesn't like relationships though. He does this with other guys too. I know. I can't be mad, because he's not mine, but I'm definitely his. He turns me around and our lips connect. He leads me on to the bed and our lips connect again. I run my fingers through his hair and his hands go up my shirt. I remember the first time we did this. He wasn't high and it was wonderful. My heart is beating as fast as when he first touched me like this.

He takes off his shirt and jeans, leaving his boxers on. He starts to take off my jacket. I sit up and help him. I take off my shirt too. Along with my pants and boxers. He lays down on his back and pulls me on top of him. My butt is sitting right on his groin. I grind my butt on him to get him hard. He groans and grabs my hips, making me grind harder. He moves his hand from my hips and starts to stroke me. I gasp and throw my head back. Both our members are hard now. I remove his hand from my cock and begin to go down on him. I pull down his boxers and start to suck his dick. He moans and runs his hand in my hair, tugging every now and then. I notice his hand fall from my hair and his moans and grunts have stopped. I look up at him and he has fallen asleep.

My heart drops and I get out of the bed. What else am I suppose to expect from Hoseok? I grab my clothes and put them in his dirty laundry. I search his drawers for clothes I can wear. I find a long shirt and figure that's enough. It'd be kinda weird to borrow his underwear, so I'll just be nude under this shirt. Not that he will mind. I go to his bathroom and turn on the hot water. I still have my problem, so I take care of it while showering. I get out of the shower and dry my body. I pull over the shirt and see that it's not as long as I thought it was. It goes mid thigh and if I make one wrong move, you'll be able to see everything. I shrug and go back into Hoseoks room. Struggling to get past all his shit on his floor, I finally make it to his bed. I pull his boxers up and lay beside him. I turn his body towards mine and use the blanket to cover us both. He moves a little and puts his arm around my waist. I admire his face and fall asleep blissfully in Hoseoks arms.

I enjoy this moment, while it lasts.

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This also kinda goes along with my other fanfic
"Kik"
If you're interested, you should check that out as well. ☺️

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