why won't you love me || taeseok

five

Taehyung •
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I hear a knock on my door and I look around my apartment to make sure everything is nice and neat. I walk to the door and unlock it. I open it slowly and my eyes connect with Hoseoks.
"Hey babe." He says, walking in casually. He sits on the couch and grabs the remote. "I love your place so much. It's better than the trash I live in." I go to the kitchen and chuckle nervously. "I actually like your place."

"Yeah, it's cause you're always there." He says, playfully. I blush and smile at his comment. I look around for some chips. "Are you hungry?" I ask, going through my pantry for snacks. I finally found the Doritos I've been looking for.
"Nah, I just popped a Vyvanse, so I won't be hungry for a couple of hours."

I look over at him and frown. I look at the chips and put them back, deciding that i'm not that hungry anymore. I go to the living room and sit beside him. He puts one arm around my waist and the other is relaxed on the couch. "What do you want to watch?" He says, scrolling through the channels. "I have Netflix and Hulu. Want to watch a movie from there?"

"Oh, yeah. I forgot you're rich." He squeezes my waist and I snuggle more into him. "No, I'm not. I just like movies." I chuckle. We both decide on Saw. We watch the movie and during the middle of it he decides to start kissing my neck and rub my thighs. I moan and we start making out on the couch. After a few minutes of grinding, he whispers in my ear. "Do you wanna move this to the bedroom?" I nod

We both get up and race towards the bedroom. We laugh as we run into door frames and walls.
Once we get to my room, he takes off his shirt and winks at me. I pull down my pants and expose my blue boxers to him. He stares at my bulge and licks his lips. "I could never get tired of the view." I blush really hard at the compliment and take off my shirt too. He comes over and grabs hold of my waist and tosses me on the bed. We laugh as I almost roll off the bed. He starts to climb on the bed to join me but, then he freezes. I look at him, laughing. "Hoseok, yeah, I'm still here." I say, mockingly.

"When did you start smoking?" He says, monotone. It catches me off guard and I look to where his eyes are at. My cigarettes. I open my mouth just to close it again. His head then turns to me. "Well?" He says. I let out a slight chuckle.
"Why do you care? Not like i'm doing drugs." I laugh it off and try to reach for his hand. He shakes his head and pulls his hand away. "No, you never have had an interest in smoking at all. Why now?" He says, this time in a more loud tone. "Hoseok, they're just cigarettes... And I don't know, I've just been stressed out."

I can see his muscles tensing as he nods. "Okay, but these can kill you. You shouldn't be doing this!" I gasp in disbelief. "You are not my parent or anyone who has authority over my life and what I do. And you'll probably die before me with all the shit you're taking and injecting in your body." I close my mouth shut and close my eyes after I had said those words. Why did I say that?

"Fine. You're right. I don't even care."
Hoseok grabs his clothes and leaves my room, slamming the front door shut. I sit there and look over towards my dresser that my cigarettes are on. I put some sweats on and walk over to grab the pack of cancer. I pull one out and put in my mouth. I walk into my restroom and throw the rest of the pack in the toilet. I light my last cigarette with the matches I have in my bathroom cabinet. Then I flush the toilet.

Don't worry Hoseok. You'll kill me before these cigarettes even have the chance to.

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