[ Hey Arnold - Helga/Phoebe ] Maybe, Sorta, Kinda?

Chapter 1

   .: Phoebe :.
Helga. Helga Pataki. She is a weird one I have to admit, but she's my best friend. Maybe I'm the weird one, but she's just so.. alluring. She's not exactly what a complete prick would interpret as 'pretty.' Moreover, she has this insanely unhealthy crush for one of my friends, Arnold. She's always yammering about him to me, and quite frankly I don't understand what she sees in that boy. Why does she even like him? She shouldn't focus on him so much. Huh, now that I realize, this sounds like jealousy doesn't it? Anyways, yeah, she's a jerk to me sometimes, but that's what makes her Helga.
   I always get mixed feelings around her. Isn't that weird? I think I know these.. feelings that I receive from being close to her, and it's far from happiness. I know it's not fear, she already scares me enough. It's love isn't it? No no, not just normal best friends forever love. It's the other kind. I love her..this way. The way that makes my heart want to burst. Kinda makes me wanna vomit. This has been going on for, what, the last six months? Oh god,
this is driving me crazy. I can't keep this secret any longer. Even if I do, would I be happy just leaving it be like that?
   I'm going to do it. We're meeting up at the park, four o' clock. She'll understand. I know she will. I'll give her some time to think, and it'll be sunshine and rainbows. Or it could be a  disaster and I could end up in months of spiraling depression.