Butterfly

6:35AM

Butterfly ~
Like a butterfly ~

Wake up, wake up (yes I'm talking to myself so what ??). A new school day is waiting for me ... I really don't wanna go to school. I wanna stay in my bed but that wonderful song tells me to wake up ....
Rhaaa fuck it !!
I take a jean and a black t-shirt, I put my black shoes and sit on my desk to start my make up. As always : black eye liner, black mascara and it's perfect.

7:00AM

I'm going in the kitchen, where is my mother, and go to ''eat''. Why ''eat'' ? Because I have many problems and I don't have strenght to eat, I don't even have strenght to sleep but I'm trying.
I keep the rest of my strenght to smile because I don't wanna worry my friends about me. So they know me as a smiling girl... as a happy and smiling girl. Lie ...

My problems ... Of course ... You wanna know what are my problems ... Ok

I'm invisible ... not really me but my sadness is invisible ... and my sadness is the biggest part of me ... So yes I'm invisible ...

My sadness ... Of course ... You wanna know what is my sadness ... Ok

Actually I'm 15 yo and I have two little sisters
I had two little sisters. Two adorable sisters. Sarah , 5 yo and Charlotte ... Who's supposed to have 6 yo.

Now you know what is my sadness ... The thing is that no : You don't know anything.
This is just the little part of it ...

The other part ... Of course ... You wanna know what is the other part ... Ok

[FLASH BACK]

June, 17th, 2014

Mum : darling can you help your sister in the shower please ?
Me : Yes mum
Mum : thank you deary

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Arrived in the bathroom where Charlotte takes a shower.

Me : hey hey hey ! I'm gonna help you
Put your hands up.

She immediatly did it.

Me : good , now you're clean
Charlotte : thank you
Me : you're welcome . I love you.
Charlotte : I love you too.
Me : anw you're so cuuute !

The thing is that there was still water in the bath because Charlotte loves have feet in water when she takes a shower. And I forgot to open the hole where falls water ...

I left Charlotte puts her pyjamas alone in the bathroom.

Charlotte's pyjamas fell in the water and she wanted to take it back ...

But she lost her balance and she fell in the bath ...

I just heard a plouf and water's moovs . That was enough ... I ran until the bathroom and I found Charlotte.

Without her life ...

I took her because I thought that she was still alive. I hoped she was still alive.

Me : Charlotte ... Charlotte ... CHARLOTTE WHAT ARE YOU DOING WAKE UP NOW
WAKE UUUP !!
MUM ! MUM ! MUUUM HEELP
CHARLOTTE WAKE UP WAKE UP !!

I hadn't strenght to cry, I was focused on my sister's body

Mum : Oh my god ! CHARLOTTE CHARLOTTE NO NO NO !! WHAT HAPPENED ??!
Me : I DON'T KNOW . I DON'T KNOW . I don't know

I was crying. My mum too.

Sarah was sleeping on our grandma's house tonight so she wasn't here.

My mum ran on the phone to call ambulances.