small suicidal stories

based on a true story part 2

I thought I was gonna be happy for the rest of my life now. That my friends would be there to give me a shoulder to cry on when I need one. That they would make me smile every day without stopping. Like in "based on a true story part 1", I said that I was happy, that I love the girls so much... But it turned around pretty quickly... So you understand the situation better, I'll be telling you my opinion. If you girls, Maddie, Kaylan and Malena, are reading, mostly the two last ones, this is all your fault.

Let's begin. Now, when I'm bored, kaylan, and I don't want to go hangout with the neighborhood because they all smoke pot, and I don't feel like watching YouTube videos, I go on the internet and talk to strangers on omegle. And my interest is 15, cute and sweet. When I find someone pretty nice and sweet, I ask for their username on Kik. I do not send and/ or ask for nudes, Malena. Last time I went to Malena's place, she told me " let's go on omegle and talk to strangers!" Now, I didn't wanted to. She did! Remember that, Malena? Anyways, moving on. I met a very nice guy that's 14 years old. I noticed that he was getting depressed. So I got worried. I talked about it to Kaylan. She was supporting me and she was saying that it's normal to worry. The next day, that's when it all turned around. In the bus, Malena told Maddie and I that Kaylan told her that I talked to her about him. They wanted to know what I told Kaylan. So I told them "He told me that he was gonna stop smoking pot for me. I noticed that he was getting depressed and..." They didn't let me finish. Maddie jumped in and said that I shouldn't believe him, that he could be chilling with his girlfriend and telling me "oohhh.. I'm suicidal, help me?" That pissed me off. I couldn't even explain to them, they wouldn't let me talk. So, I started to ignore them. The whole day passed without talking to them. When I got home, Kaylan sent me this huge paragraph saying it was pretty stupid that I was worried for him. If your reading this Kaylan, and I hope you are, make up your mind!! Anyway, after I read that huge paragraph basically saying bullshit about me, I text her back "Anything else?" Kaylan blocked me... Couple minutes after, I get a text from Malena telling me "how dare you tell that to Kaylan! You just lost a friend!" I was so chocked! I received a text from Kaylan saying that what I said was very friendly... Wtf?! Now, I'm not gonna tell you every te t that Malena and Kaylan dent to me, but this very specific text that hurts me the most, and it still does... It was Malena's text. She told me that I was my friend's slut, that..... Urgh.. Nevermind the other part... But I lost it... It's your fault Malena! And it your fault to Kaylan! I started believing it... I really thought I was a slut.. And I still do... I cry every day coz of it... I cut myself plenty of times... I haven't cut for 4 days now... Anyways, I have no more friends... I only hang out with some girls at lunch. But in class I'm by myself... I try to fit in, hide everything behind a smile... I can tell that Kaylan, Malena, and my very own cousin, Maddie, talk behind my back...

If you girls are reading this, I didn't write this because I want you back, it's because so you can see how much pain you gave me... And p.s. I believe in karma...