Prequel
Hi...I am ______.(insert name)
Ming is my ultimate crush in the campus. He always gives me the inspiration to study everyday. Moreover, he recently won as Mr. Campus Hearthrob among all other male candidates who compete for the said title from different college departments.
Just for a brief biography of my husband (to be) , Choi Min is said to posses the most charismatic looks that some other males dying to have. Girls are chasing after him trying to have an autograph and a picture together with him; YES. Instant Celebrity. His built is similar to a celebrity specifically Choi Siwon. Rumors spread that he was a relative of that celeb because of their resembles.
Choi Min is;
ü 22 years old
ü 5’5’’ in height
ü Strong, seductive Eye
ü Perfectly sculptured face
ü Perfectly built body with six packed abs
ü Kissable lips
ü Slightly chocolate brown skin
ü Attitude? Well.. Silent Type
Not to mention more... this are just some of the qualifications I want to share to you my dear jelous readers.
As I have mentioned a while ago, we are classmates from the same level. Actually, we are in the 3rd year level taking up Bachelor in Science in Nursing. Yes. We are of the same course and we sometimes talk in the class. I felt this shyness from within my feels when I once have a one-on one conversation with him as part of an activity once inside our class.
The way I look at him is a NO easy task. When I talk to him that time, I suspect him to smile at me everytime he stare at me. My heart skips a beat and it seems like I burn that time. It was my first time to talk to him that day . I usually stare to him from afar whenever the instructor in front is a bit boring especially in the anatomy.
Moreover, the girls in the class are not like me. I am just silent but eiger to get him unto my arms XD. My classmates are flirting with him but I just kept silent. However, Choi Min is trying to move farther from these girls sorrounding him. He doesn’t like girls that are seductive, feeling that these creatures would eat him raw. No wonder he is crowned as the most beautiful face in the class and avoiding these incident needs to get used this time.
But he is not that obvious to let them know that he is scared with them. He just smile and asked for an excuse for a while.
Girls gigled.
This is his armor of escape.
Males envy these scenes. But 2 of our classmates are his close friends. They are good-looking as well namely, Rein and Clyde .
Rein also join the said competition and he won as second runner up. He is the most gentleman among the three of them.
Clyde is the playboy among the group . He usually date three to five girls in different days and almost 20 in a week. But inspite of the bad habit, he is one of the top students in the class.
Hm...... let’s see... what else do I have here in my notebook?
Ah yes. I remember. I have not mentioned yet the family status of my husband.
Choi Min’s family owns a big cosmetic company near the town . It was also said that when he is finally married and settle a family, his father will inherit him his richness.
But hey men....I am not after his wealth. All I need is him, only him.
Having a dozen of children with him is my top priority. From the very first time I saw him I knew that he will be my “Only One” . He really captured my inferior vena cava . My veins before only rush pure red blood that carries the necessary oxygen to sustain my life. But as he came to my life, part of him runs all over my veins making me think of him every single moment .
Oh GOD. You may say that I am crazy but I think this is reality.
But there is a problem. I know that it is an impossible dream. .
Some say fairy tales do come true. That a prince and a princess met each other , they fall in love, get married and have children . I may be dramatic now but this is my conclusion. Me and Choi Min can never be.
Seeing him flirted by other girls pains me a lot. Like thorned roses prickled my butt. I just don’t have this courage to confess him about my feelings because I might end up to be as a laughing stock by other people.
We can never be and I know it.
All I can do is to write his biography as part of my love to him.
At the end of the page of this crap notebook is a poem I created about me and Choi Min .
I kept silent for almost one year but I will let you read my restricted poem to you my dear jelous readers. So.... I think I am having a hard time in breathing but ..... HERE IT GOES.
My secret love for Choi Min
From the very first time I saw you,
I get this feeling
Are you an angel? A knight? A prince?
Or just a dream.
You may not know
That I truly adore you
Your smile and careless moves
Are listed on my notebook
So why can we never be?
This sacred letter
The love that I want you to feel
Cannot be revealed
From all other girls
My love for you cannot be tamed.
Yes I am a GAY
Who am I to Blame?
Yes. You have read it. I am just like him. I am a male, a boy, a person that should love an opposite sex.
You may now judge me. Am I that disgusting? This is just reality. I am inlove with my own kind.
I said at the end of the poem, “Who am I to blame?” it is true.
I had this feeling of change. From the very first time I saw him... my attraction to girls seems to have been dull. I once court a girl before I saw him. I would like to satisfy myself because I am searching for a girl that I will truly love but it was no use. Until then, I realize that it was not a love of a girl that I need.
Choi Min made me a Gay on his presence.
The first time I saw him my heart accidentally skipped.
Of course I was curious that time. Then I felt my chest by my palm. It really skipped as he walk across me. And so I said to myself,
“Really.... Am I?”
I don’t want to tell the “magic word’ back then.
As weeks pass by... I can really tell that Choi Min really pass my qualifications. I felt simple joys from his simple smiles and moves. But moreover... I really want to confess my true feelings.
Who am I to blame for?
My parents, classmates and even my close friend didn’t even know that I’ve changed.
I am actually planning to just keep this secret for a long time but there is a saying,
“no secrets will be kept hiding forever”
Who am I to blame for, Right?
