lovesick and heartbroken

how i went down hill

 *phun pov

in grade 5 i was a bit chubby and like any other tubby kid i got bullied it started with one comment but it soon got out of hand my classmates would steal my lunchs and say you're fat enough everyday i would come home crying but haveing bolth parents never home made my life hell i started to eat my feelings and hiding myself i felt like shit but that was just the start

in 7 grade i found a new way to eat and not gain weight purgeing i felt this was the best way getting to eat and lose weight at the same time i would sneek after lunch in the bath room and do it no one ever notised how many times i when to the bathroom untill grade 8 when my little sister nong pang found me in the bathroom hunch over the toilet fingers in my mouth she was the first one to care first one to notise i hated it she would walk me to the bathroom she would yell at me anytime i went with out her but i found way to sneak past her after grade 10 i started to not eat at all and that where i am now emty tummy practlely skin and bone

*win's pov

i remember the first cut i made it was 4 years ago in my homes bathroom it was just ever thing my dad hits me im gay im ugly and when the blade slit my thighs for the first time i felt all that pain leave my body along with the blood and to this day no one knows im at 800 now iknow because i count them by now i feel no pain i feel no need to wear bright color anymore so that my story im still an worthless human being sliting myself crying burning myself but on the out side i seem happy

* tak tak tak*

i wake up to the sound of rock trown anginst my window i get out of bed and go open it theres per on the other side with a sign that read ( party at films u coming) i think about it it would be good to get out of the house so i write (ok im going who's going?) i wait for him to write something down (music club some swim team members some of the sudent conceil (nong auther cant spell wright) so u in ) i think about it (yes im canadian lol) (yes im come down meet u down by the park k) i close the widow now for the hardest part seaking out *time skip

i run to to the park as fast as i can i final fined per and were on are way im wearing skinny jeans and a long shirt and he's wearing a tee shirt with sweats

*mick pov

my first time was at a rave me and my friends when to it looked harmless a tiny pill smaller the vitaimins i take so i thoght why the heck not big mistake i found myself in a random torn up apartment needles and bottles everywhere and every weekend i fined myself in the same place ether alone of with some random guy some times if im real need for anything i sell myself it not safe but it get me money to fuel my addition for cocaine or molly i want to stop i want my old life back ....... but i cant

*ring ring ring* i pick up my phone it p'ohm "hey mick you coming to flims house to night i heared nohs bringing this hubby it going to be joke haeven" yes a party but im getting coke today i think about it " sure i might be late tho" "ok see you there" *click* god i hate lieing to him like this to get drug i text my drug dealer he said around 8:00 he should be around this part of town *time skip*

oh crap im late i tolled p'ohm i would be there in two minutes i could just bring it there i stop to think about it it not like there going to check my body or bag for anything so keep on walking and i final get to the door most of them are already drunk with beer bottles everwhere im use to it by now being a party boy and all "nong mick what are you wharing" god dammit why did i where short shorts and a tank top" i hate myself right now "nong mick you look so gay gayer then the angel gang" p'noh comments "hey noh your worse then him you and your hubby go everywhere together" "shut the fuck up ohm i bet u made him pick this out just you could get some action" they all laugh as we blushed " had a bet with someone i know and i lost it so i had to where this for two day" they all took the bate no one will know i was with m drug dealer/sugardaddy i sat down and like all ways if i havent had a hit in a while i shake i hate it i hate partys with out molly of coke wait i have coke in my bag my life is saved now to fined a place where i can take it the bath room "p'ohm im going to the bathroom" "ok i think phuns in there" i run to the bathroom as fast as i can when i get to the door i heared gagging and renching "phun are you ok" "yes im fine" he came out afew minutes later with red eye and his breath stank of vomit and alcohol jeez what happen in there (foreshadowing auther is foreshadowing) i went in locked the door got the coke out of my bag made two line "this is going to be a weird night and i snifted the two lines down