nerd rope| namjin

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The rest of that night, Namjoon ignored Seokjin, and Seokjin ignored him. So they sat next to eachother, in complete silence. Seokjin was still angry at Namjoon, even though he trusted it would never happen again.

Namjoon wasn't so sure. Yoongi, who at one point he had loved, never felt the same for him. He was afraid that's how him and Seokjin would turn out. Namjoon to in love; and Seokjin not in love enough.

Maybe he was wrong for thinking that, maybe he was right. But with Seokjin not bothering to even speak to him, it made him wonder.

"I'm going to sleep. If you want, come to our room. If not, sleep here. But I'd rather be with you." Seokjin mumbled. He leaned down and kissed Namjoons forehead before running off into the hallway.

Namjoon sighed, not sure what to do with himself. He could hear Seokjins footsteps in his room. He knew what Seokjin had done was completely wrong, but he wanted to believe he didn't mean it.

He wanted to believe that Seokjin had done it out of rage. He would understand then, why it had happened. At the same time, he knew Seokjin could have done it because he liked Jackson.

Seokjin himself didn't know. He just knew that if Namjoon came crawling into bed with him, he would forgive him.

Not that he expected him too.

Seokjin found himself falling asleep around one in the morning, Namjoon still in the other room. He knew that Namjoon was angry to.

He fell asleep with his last thoughts on Namjoon. By then, Namjoon had decided even if he was angry, he shouldn't let Seokjin sleep alone.

While the black haired boy was asleep, Namjoon snuck into his room and climbed into bed. Seokjin immediately shifted to wrap his fingers around Namjoons arm.

"I love you Seokjin. No matter what you do to me, I will always love you. That's a blessing and a curse." Namjoon mumbled. He smiled softly while studying Jins features.

He felt himself falling asleep,his arms finding themselves around Jin, and his hands to his ass. Seokjin body moved closer to Namjoons, a smile on his lips.
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Seokjin found himself in Namjoons arms when he woke up. He smiled, trying to untangle himself from the mountain of Namjoons limbs. He didn't want to wake the younger.

The small boy walked to the kitchen of his apartment, planning to cook Namjoon bacon and pancakes.

After he collected all the ingredients, Namjoon emerged from the bedroom. Seokjin smiled, leaning against the counter. "Good morning my sweet daddy, do you want pancakes?"

Namjoon shook his head, going into the living room and plopping down on the couch. His hair stood up and was tousled around. Seokjin found it extremely attractive. "Seokjin, I'm still angry. I just didnt want you to be alone."

"Oh." Seokjins face fell. Namjoon didn't want him to be upset, but he himself was angry. "I heard you talking to me last night. I was hoping that meant you weren't angry anymore..."

"It just means I'm still in love with you. I don't know if I can forgive you." Namjoon spoke. Seokjin kept facing the ground, wanting to avoid eye contact.

"Namjoon, you said the only other person you loved didn't love you. Tell me about it. I want to understand." Seokjin asked quietly. Namjoon sighed, nodding.

"It was Min Yoongi, my roommate. I loved him so dearly. I knew that he didn't return those feelings, but he eventually offered to be fuck buddies. So I agreed. It went on for a long time and for a while I even had it in my head that he had fallen in love with me.

he didn't. So when he told me that he was done with me, it broke my heart. Now, I have you. I trust you with my heart, Seokjin. And you've already started to break it. You may think I'm this giant fuckboy. I'm not. I'm a weak, pathetic boy that needs you to need me. And I need you." Namjoon took a breath, wiping his eyes.

"Namjoon I'm sorry. I know I can't ever take away what happened with Jackson. I didn't even mean to. I don't want him. I don't. I want you."

Seokjin was now in front of Namjoon. He climbed into his arms, curling up in his lap. Namjoon wasn't done forgiving him, not yet.

"Seokjin, move to Ilsan with me."