Hey guys it's Maya
So I haven't updated in like over 2 weeks or 3 weeks or so because I've been going through a shit time .
So yeah a lot of things have been going on
For starters my mom and my sisters dad are getting back together which ya'll probably are like oh that's great but it isn't . My mom deserves someone better than him and my mom , him and my sister are just like one family and I always feel left out .
I have exams and my family are always fighting and I just can't cope with anything like I have a home-ec exam today and I'm not even prepared because my mom didn't have time to help me with anything .
My uncle passed away and I can't seem to cope with him leaving .
My old friend who moved school started giving out shit to me because my best friend ( or I thought she was) started telling her I spread loads of rumours about her which isn't true at all .
Then the old friend who moved school told her other friend and she called me things like : your the fakest bitch ever , your such a whore you dress like a Stripper, you'd do anything for attention , you lie about everything , your a worthless piece of shit , no one likes you .
And then my best friend just turned against me saying everything the other girl said about me was true .
She completely stabbed me in the back after I've done everything for her .
Then the best friend told her cousin (who bullies me) all the things saying I look for attention , the cousin came up to me said all I look for is attention and he slapped me in the face .
My mom and I are always fighting and I can't cope with anything anymore .
I started self harming again .
I don't go anywhere anymore , when I'm in school I'll go in the classroom and just sleep . I won't talk to anyone .
I have to see the person who betrayed me every day and I still can't believe what she did to me .
I can't cope with anything anymore .
I want to die .
Any confidence I had , they knocked it all down .
Now i don't know why I keep myself alive .
So I don't know whether I will continue this book or not .
But I'll try for you guys xx
I love you all so much ❤️
I'll try update more x
Thank you for reading if you did x
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Assholes | magcon
FanfictionI spent most of my days jogging down the street , at my best friend Camilla's house , or trying to avoid being home with my mother . That was until I was forced to go on the magcon tour with guys that I basically thought were assholes and everything...
